AND ON THAT NOTE, GOODNIGHT

Dun dun DUNNNNN

SCHOOL STARTS TOMORROW AND I'M SUPER SCARED LIKE I AM NOT READY FOR ANYTHING THIS SEMESTER FROM SCHOOLWORK TO EXTRACURRICULARS TO THE VISOR TO THEATER TO MY JOB TO COLLEGE APPLICATIONS I AM NOT MENTALLY PHYSICALLY OR EMOTIONALLY PREPARED FOR THIS I CAN'T I CAN'T I CAN'T I CAN'T

On the bright side, my mom is making Chicken Parmesan so it's a solid night.

Summer Reading is Officially OVER

I finished annotating my book, although I'll probably go in and highlight a few random things before class starts. And I still haven't finished my Honor's Government homework, but I still have my lunch period to work on that. And now, I'll be making a CD for the car and then winding down for the night! I think I'll do some Pilates then clean out my drawers to see if there's anything I could donate to Goodwill. I just need to distract myself from my worries about tomorrow and the semester in general.

I really don't want the night to end. I'd do anything to not have to go to school tomorrow. I'm nervous and scared, even though I ought to be excited since it's the first day of my senior year. I'm nervous about how I'll be able to hold up with all of my stress. I'm nervous about how I'll make my schedule work with me. I'm scared by all the work I'll have to do, and how alone I'm going to be without Andy. I don't want the night to end at all. I'm so so stressed and worried, I don't wanna do this.

Sneeze post

My allergies are acting up today and I can't stop sneezing!!!! It's really obnoxious. I'm struggling to type this between the watering of my eyes and my need to grab tissues every thirty seconds. It's ridiculous! You can call me Emily the Red-Nosed Reindeer for now.

Oops forgot to switch out the laundry like my mom told me to oops

Since I finished my essay, I started cleaning out my closet finding stuff to donate to Goodwill. If there's one thing I don't have, it's closet space. It doesn't matter that much since a year from today I'll be moved in and getting ready to go to college, but it's still annoying.

Cooking Adventure of the Day: Eggs

Eggs are probably my favorite breakfast item. They're wonderful any way you cook them, and there's infinite possibilities with them! You can scramble them with cheese, meats, and veggies, you can make an omelette, you can make fantastic breakfast sandwiches with them, you can fry one and put it on a burger, you can poach, fry, bake, and boil them and they're fantastic! My all-time favorite breakfast food is Eggs Benedict. Just ohhhh my god eggs are like the potato of protein (potatoes are hella versatile, which is why I say this)! I even got Andy, who disliked breakfast food until he dated me, to fall in love with eggs! He makes sunny-side-up eggs almost every day!

Even though I can do almost everything with an egg, I simply cannot figure out how to cook an egg over easy or sunny-side-up. Every time I try, I'm left with at least one third of the egg being raw and inedible. It's definitely something I need to work on.

IT IS FINISHED

I FINISHED THE DAMN ESSAY YASSSSSS EMILY YASSSSSSSSS I HAD 1,007 WORDS THIS IS GREAT I'M FREE I'M FREE I'M FREE!!!!!!!!!!!!!

39 WORDS LEFT ON MY ESSAY I CAN DO THIS I CAN DO THIS!!!!!

I have a really bad headache and the right half of my face hurts like crazy. I tried aspirin and taking a brief nap, but neither really helped at all. I'm starting to think that I get stress-induced headaches, but that doesn't really explain too well why half of my face hurts.

Work Last Night

Last night I got out of work at 11... It's looking like it's gonna be that late on Tuesday, too.... I can't have that going on, I'm gonna lose my mind!!!!! There was a really adorable little girl who came into the store dressed as Elsa from Disney's Frozen and she was precious! Apparently she wears her Elsa dresses every day: they had to buy her four dresses because she'd never take them off! We had some Frozen character socks, but we sold out of them the week before she came in! Funnily enough, two of my coworkers were arguing over which movie was better, Frozen or the Fast and Furious movies. I think that girl settled that argument pretty well.

I'm heading in to work now. Wish me luck! This is probably "goodnight," too. Oh well!

OOPS JK I HAVE 817 WORDS THIS IS BETTER THAN EXPECTED

I got 801 words on my essay, WOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I got some annotations done, but I can always do that on my break or later tonight by lamplight or something. All is well in this girl's world! It's just such a big relief to be almost finished with this homework. That was one of my biggest stressors.

I FINISHED THE QUOTE REFLECTIONS OH MY GOD YASSSSSS

I'm so mad that I have to work tonight! At improv, our fearless leader Bob is doing the ALS Ice Bucket Challenge along with two other players who were nominated on stage! All the proceeds from the show are going to ALS, and they'll be matching donations. Personally I just wanna see them get buckets of ice water poured on them!

8/23/14

Good morning everybody! I'm off to a solid start this morning: I ate a healthy breakfast and exercised a little. It wasn't much, but it's a great start. I have a lot to get done today. My goal is to finish my quote reflections and annotating my book before I go to work at 4, and then to get to at least 800 words on my essay. I would love to just enjoy my last day of summer break tomorrow, so the more I get done the better. I also plan on exercising at least a bit today. I've gotten in such bad shape since I was in New York, and I need to do what I can to get to where I ought to be health-wise.

Ferguson

My mom just got home from  St. Louis, which has me thinking a lot about the situation in Ferguson. The whole thing really angers me. It angers me that a cop killed a boy for absolutely no good reason. It angers me that the police there are inept, racist, and doing nothing about it. It angers me that this man got away with murder. It angers me that when a community came together to protest, they were treated like animals; tear gassed, shot at with rubber bullets and even live ammunition and hardly anything has been done to help them. It angers me so so much that the journalists trying to cover the situation are being denied their rights and even threatened by the St. Louis county police department. It angers me that the first amendment is being denied to these Americans. It angers me that the police in Ferguson are deliberately breaking the law by hiding their identities. It infuriates me that many police forces in America, especially Ferguson's and St. Louis county's, are more militarized than ever and even have more gear than America's army. It infuriates me that absolutely nothing has been done to take control back during this gross miscarriage of the law by the federal government. It infuriates me that nothing is being done, period.

Stress Post 1/who knows how many

Ugggggggggggggggggh writing is so so so hard and I don't wanna do it one bit and blehhhhhh. I just wanna lay around and sleep and be cuddled and that's not gonna happen for a long time and blehhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

My cat was just in a deep sleep and it was really really really cute. Needless to say I was distracted.

I feel like everything that I'm writing is super lame, but in the words of the deep voiced whatchamacallit in Katy Perry's Dark Horse, "There's no going back."

Aaaand I'm still far from finished with my essay. Great.

8-22-14

As expected, saying goodbye to Andy was really really rough. I felt bad because 40 minutes before I had to go I just burst into tears. I cried and cried and cried and it was really awful. I don't even know how I made it home, I was falling to pieces and screaming and sobbing and it was awful. I feel a bit better now, except for the gazillion other things stressing me out.