I wanna watch some Netflix

I wish I didn't have to study and stuff now. I just want to listen to music or watch movies or a show on Netflix. I just get so worn out. It's not even an issue of motivation, I'm just tired all the time. I cant wait for my schedule to get more relaxed in college. I wish I could take it easier for the rest of my life, but that's not gonna happen. I'm making it a goal, for my own mental health, to watch at least one movie per week outside of film club. It'll help me de-stress and it'll give me even more of an edge in filmmaking- you have to watch movies in order to know what you're looking for.

I've been listening to the Submarine soundtrack for the past few hours. It's so so so so gorgeous and ahhhhh Alex Turner is a beautiful and glorious man with a beautiful and glorious voice and beautiful and glorious songs!!!!!!

I DON'T WANNA DO HOMEWOOOORK

10/16/14

Today I didn't do much of anything. It was a late start day, which was glorious on so many levels! I tutored some, which was lovely. This Saturday I'm attempting to get the people from my homecoming group together for a movie night. I only have two definite yeses so far, and hopefully a few more people will RSVP soon.

My mom worries about me a lot because I never hang out with anybody outside of school, so this really helps her out as well as me.

I started Cry-Baby. It was rough, so I gave up.

Heathers was so good too! I wish it ended on a happier note, JD was a really cool character and I wish that he and Veronica could've worked it out.

Now I'm watching Heathers, and it's really interesting.

Submarine

Oh my goodness I'm in tears. I haven't felt something so acutely as Submarine made me feel heartbreak. It was a beautiful movie and had lovely visuals, shifts, soundtrack, actors, story, everything. This is definitely a new favorite for me. I wish I had seen this sooner! Now I just want to listen to Arctic Monkeys and stand out on a cold Welsh beach for several sunsets and dusks, no matter how damp and cold it is.

Submarine is really really really really really really really really good!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I decided to watch Submarine instead! I mean, I can at least create a document where I can outline my Bio test essay so it's like I'm doing proper homework...

Today was a really uneventful day. I did ok on my Bio quiz, now I'm debating between studying for the test in that class on Friday or watching a movie for awhile. I don't actually have homework tonight, it's a rare occasion. Speaking of rare occasions, I got a 100% on my AP English research essay! It's rare when my teacher gives those out, so needless to say I was thrilled. It's just what my grades needed.

goodnight

Now I'm just listening to Kanye and feeling sad.

Down in the dumps (literally)

I'm really worried that I'm just screwing my entire life up this year. My grades are slipping despite the exorbitant amount of work I put into all of my classes, the newspaper is nowhere near as good as it was the past three years, I'm all alone, and I hate it. I'm not doing the things I love, I'm not spending enough time with the people I love, and I don't want things to keep slipping. I mean I haven't even made my bed, put my laundry away, packed my lunch, or collected the trash and taken it to the curb. I may as well just stay out there with it and let the trash man take me to the dump.

I FINISHED MY ESSAY THIS IS A GLORIOUS OCCASION

I'm still screwed, just not as significantly as I had been!

And I still need to shower, oops.

At least I have Kanye West

Homework is killing me. I still have hella math and hella paper revisions and hella stories to edit and hella quizzes to study for and hella laundry to put away and hella bedmaking to do and hella lunch to pack and I'm hella screwed

I got back about an hour ago from a food club outing. We went to a Thai restaurant and it was absolutely delicious! Asian cuisine in general is one of my favorite things. If I had to rank the cuisines I liked best, it would go in this order:

1. Comfort Food- MAC AND CHEESE! Hell-ooo....
2. Asian Cuisine
3. Seafood
4. Barbecue
5. Italian Cuisine
6. Breakfast Foods!!!!!
7. Mexican Cuisine
8. French Cuisine

I'm dying.

I leave in an hour and I still have to read a play, do three math worksheets, revise an essay, read an article and write a summary, and read and outline Article 2 of the Constitution. I'm screwed on so many levels.

I've hardly made a dent in my homework for today hahahahahahahahahahahahahaha star student right here

Homecoming

Last night was so much fun! I've never really had fun at any of the dances before, but for the first time ever I actually did. Mostly it was thanks to my friend, Dylan, who was my date. For the first time in forever I feel like I actually have a close friend at school. Here's how the night went from start to finish:

First, Dylan and I met up at my school with my mom so she could take a few pictures of us. We were there really early, and the DJ for the dance was there and he was locked out so we did what we could to help him out.

After that, we went to my friend Kaela's house and met with some other people for pictures. We went to dinner at Outback Steakhouse, and it was a little hectic because they lost our reservation. It was still tasty though, so I'm pleased!

At the dance we had a ton of fun. I've never had so much fun at a dance before! The entire time he gave me a lot of attention and was very sweet and conscientious. He even carried me to the car because my feet were killing me! No one has ever done something like that for me, and it was very sweet.

After the dance, went bowling with some other friends. I didn't want to go home, that's how much fun I was having. Overall, my favorite parts of the night were the car rides everywhere. I didn't realize all the things Dylan and I had in common, and for the first time I felt like I had a real friend at school.

My dad woke me up at 7:15... No.

Goodnight!!!!!!!!!

I'm tired out beyond belief. Tomorrow is homecoming, so I won;t be posting much, but I will try to put up a few pictures!!!! I;m really excited for homecoming and to just let loose for a weekend. I pampered myself for the past few hours, it was lovely. Sleep tight!

The letter has been sent! I also sent an email to the writers of the article. I feel pretty positive about it all not that I've let it out.