Uggggggh I lost the fire and I still have all kinds of work to do....

I'm gonna try to get through my bio and at least do SOME of the math homework that I have. I need to, as a bare minimum, do the homework that I had over the snow days and the worksheet that was my homework for the past two nights. I can always do tonight's math homework in study hall tomorrow/before school. The bottom line is that I'm not motivated enough in math which is why I am always putting it off and it ends up biting me in the ass in the end. Like in the units where I pay attention and actually do my homework the night it's assigned, I do soooo much better on the tests and stuff than when I'm constantly procrastinating, not paying attention, and struggling to catch up. I did GREAT during the last chapter, but with this new one, not so much...

Overall I'm pretty pleased with my day off, although it comes nowhere close to anything Ferris Buehler-esque. This is honestly the most productive I've been in ages!

Believe it or not, I'm on fire!!!!

Over the past hour and a half, I've basically finished my religion homework, made a lot of headway on my poetry analysis packet for English, AND I'm just about finished with my service project essay! I mean I haven't started my math, but that's not necessarily a bad thing! To be honest, I got about as much work done in an hour and a half at home as I would have done in eight hours at school, if that tells you anything about my school schedule.

OKAY, I'm doing SOME work...

I've decided to split the time until my sister gets home with my work between my next Video Production project, my community service hours essay, and getting ahead on my religion homework. I'm not about to look at my math until my sister arrives home with a calculator. If the spirit moves me, I'll read some of my textbook to try to get a better understanding of what's going on there. I can't really afford to get behind; I only JUST brought my grades up from the pits of despair and fixed my GPA to where it ought to be...

Uggggggggggghhhh

I'm super bored and not in the mood at all to work on homework and the like. I probably should at least catch up on my math, but it's annoying and I don't want to work at all....

I'm kinda in the mood to watch Marley and Me or something of that like. I need some cute animal antics in my day!

Sick Day

I essentially passed out last night and was out cold. I feel pretty blehhhhh and weak more than anything else. I was incredibly dizzy earlier, but now that I've eaten I feel somewhat better. Overall I just need some time to recuperate myself and get stronger for tomorrow. I can't really sleep anymore, but it's nice just to lay down and rest my head and everything else. I don't really want to go back to school, to be honest! But I'll survive. Not too long until I'll be out of school anyways, and that's the silver lining I need!

Uggggggggggggggh

Aaaaand to top everything off, my ankle is really hurting me again. Like can it wait until after the Winter Formal dance this weekend?

2/24/15

Overall, today was pretty awful. I finally got an email from DePaul about the scholarship, and well... I didn't get an interview. I'm pretty upset about that since it sort of validates all the feelings I had been having the other night when the whole posting of scholarship brags began. That, on top of the whole beautiful homecoming queen getting with my ex thing threw my self-esteem in the shitter today. I haven't felt this awful about myself in quite some time.

The only good part of my day was volunteering at my school's blood drive, but even that got marred since my poor sister went through some traumatic experiences in that whole process. My sister has blood drawn regularly for tests and the like, so she was expecting things to be a piece of cake. And of course, they weren't! Her nurse could not find the vein correctly and wound up bruising her arm pretty terribly. She had started to cry and she absolutely HATES crying, so I helped her out and got her tissues and juice and cookies while she was feeling horrible. Once they finally got the needle into her arm properly, they cut her donation short since she wasn't getting blood out fast enough, so she basically went through all that trouble for nothing. Now, she's in a ton of pain and so am I. 

I just want to sleep, so I'm probably going to ignore the majority of my homework again.

LOL @ My Self-Esteem

So this morning I found out that my ex boyfriend is going to the school's winter formal with another school's homecoming queen… Meanwhile, I'm the trash queen...

Goodnight!!!!

At least I managed to squeeze in a workout!

Call me "Fifty Shades of Pathetic..."

I've accomplished literally nothing on my to-do list for tonight. I am a waste of human cells and oxygen.

OOPS....

HAHAHAHAHA I STILL HAVEN'T STARTED MY HOMEWORK AND IT'S NOT EVEN LIKE I HAD THAT MUCH TO DO LIKE REALLY IT'S ONLY MATH AND RECORDING A QUICK SOUNDBITE FOR A VOICE OVER FOR VIDEO PRODUCTION LIKE WAY TO GO EMILY, YOU ARE THE PROCRASTINATION QUEEN!

Oops...

I'm slowly dying and I still haven't done my math homework from the snow days yet oops...

I had birthday cake for dinner tonight and I don't regret it one bit!

I did get sucked into an incredibly long phone call with my dad's health insurance company for a survey about my practically-nonexistent-since-it's-so-well-controlled asthma that was painfully annoying and ruined the meal. It also prevented me from talking to my mom about Columbus and a camera... That was pretty obnoxious....

Soooooo I'm looking at cameras...

Since I'm stuck filming on a clumsy, low-quality iPad for Video Production AND since I'll eventually need a camera of my own, I've been scoping out cameras for myself. I am currently between the Canon Rebel T3i and the Nikon D3200. Both are HD DSLR cameras, but the Nikon camera is about $103 cheaper and I need to save every penny I can get. I'm going to talk it out with my mom, along with the whole "shooting a movie in Columbus for a week or two over the summer" thing either tonight or tomorrow night. I always get really nervous about this stuff because I'm always worried that she'll say no, but I don't know why she'd say no to me about the Columbus movie business since that'll really be beneficial to me and my career as well as giving me more experience in Film. The camera however, is another story. I know she'd rather me save my money so that I have more spending money in college, so I don't know how that'll go. I think she'll like the idea of me going for the cheaper but similar Nikon in the place of the Canon, so I don't really know!

I don't have too much work to do tonight; just math! I probably won't end up doing that, though, knowing me....

2/23/15

Well, my day was relatively uneventful! I survived my religion test and my AP Bio test (which was actually a partner test!) and, other than being called a "controlling bitch" by my co-editor-in-chief of the newspaper, made it through the day unscathed! 

Goodnight!!!

I've accepted my imminent death by AP Bio test tomorrow.... Goodbye, cruel world!!!!!

LOLOLOLOL I give up

Uggggggghhhh

I don't want to go to school AT ALL tomorrow. It's not that I hate school so much, it's that I'm not looking forward to taking a test first thing in the morning and then to take another test at the end of the day that we haven't even finished learning the material for!!!! Like that's ridiculous. I know we had the snow days and everything, but it's not like I can just teach myself bioenergetics!  It's just not going to work out for anybody...

The family dinner was pretty solid! I mostly just got money as a birthday gift. I can't complain though! I guess I can now buy the stuff that was on my birthday list in the first place!