I give up

Goodnight, if you can call it good.

I can't stop feeling sad right now because literally every chance I've had to see Andy, something has gotten in the way. No matter how hard I try it's like the universe just doesn't want to see me be truly happy.

Bleh

I'm still not done with homework. I still feel terrible. Nothing has changed.

Kill me now please

I'm not ready to take on more responsibility, nope nope nope nope what was I thinking?!

11/9/14

Today I had to get dragged along with my sister to a local protestant church for a religion project she had to do. It was alright, but I've been really sore and stiff lately from pulling hella muscles when I attempted to work out so that put a damper on things. 

Today has also been hella stressful because nobody worked on the Honors Gov project except for me, and by the time someone had started doing something she was basically reiterating everything that I had already said in the presentation and she was changing a bunch of stuff with the format and design of our presentation. It's my co-editor-in-chief, the girl who micromanages everything to the point where nobody wants to work with her. In addition to that, the newspaper is supposed to go to print this Wednesday and I have hardly seen any stories, and I only just finished my story about the girls soccer team because the girl who was taking notes didn't send me her notes until I reminded her about three hours ago.

On top of all of that, I still have a huge Honors Gov packet to finish, an AP Bio test to study for, an English exam to prep for, and I have to make time to exercise and do some chores. 

Needless to say, I'm fucking stressed.

Yesterday

Yesterday, despite the fact that I didn't get to spend it with Andy, was a pretty solid day. I went to this fantastic German restaurant for Food Club, and oh. My. GOODNESS WAS IT DELICIOUS. I had some fantastic Wiener Schnitzel and a lot of Spätzel. I've been craving Spätzel for ages oh my goodness. I didn't want that meal to end!!!!! Other than that, not  a lot happened yesterday.

Badnight

Apparently it's all for naught now since it's "supposed to sleet" or some bullshit wintry weather thing tomorrow night, so I'm not going to get to see Andy for sure until Thanksgiving. Even that weekend is a little iffy. I'm just gonna cry myself to sleep now, woohoo.

So apparently my dad isn't a fan of me visiting my boyfriend tomorrow because he is worried about the Cleveland traffic, the neighborhood, and me being there in the dark, even though I was in the dark literally the last time I went. It's fucking rad. And I can't try to convince him that everything is going to be just fine because he's asleep. The only time that I'll be able to talk to him would be if I were to wake up at 6AM and caught him before he went to golf. I've got all the evidence and points I need, I just need to make sure I'm giving the right delivery because if I get even CLOSE to sassy/grumpy he will fly off the handle and not let me go, possibly ever again. 

11/7/14

Today has been pretty lowkey for me. Girls soccer lost their state finals match, which was pretty unpleasant. For the first time in a really long time, I exercised. Turns out I've gained 11 pounds since July. It really freaks me out, especially since I had gotten so far before everything got in my way. So now I'm going to try to lose at least 8 of those pounds within the next two months, just in time for my birthday.

I've started watching and have almost finished Bojack Horseman and I'm not even mad. It's clever, smart, but it also makes you feel things.

Not gonna lie I just ate a ridiculous amount of birthday cake ice cream. I'm not even mad though.

I'm not digging the whole "effort" thing right now.

I should really work on homework since I'm going to be gone for the majority of Saturday and I'll be at the play tomorrow night, but there's birthday cake flavored ice cream downstairs and Netflix exists...

11/6/14

Today was incredibly interesting! I was on a field trip for AP Bio all day. It was essentially a really really long and boring talk given in a freezing high school auditorium, but towards the end the talk he got into some really cool updates in medicine that could change the way we treat cancer and potentially cure Type I Diabetes, as well as making organs more available to those in need of donors. 

There was a conference recently that discovered that the only cells that can be "founders" cells for cancers are stem cells since only stem cells are capable of mitosis. Through testing of blood just like one would get tested for allergies, one could screen for cancer and get the problem taken care of before it can even happen. There was also something about antibodies for stem cells, but I don't remember what it was exactly so I don't want to say something inaccurate. 

In terms of growing organs in laboratories, a lot has been done and can be done to make it easier to create new organs with ease. One really awesome discovery was creating a chimeric embryo combining a mouse embryo with rat stem cells and vice versa. Each would be spotted with tissue from the other in it. Scientists took this one step further, genetically modifying the mouse so that it would not have a pancreas. Despite this, the mouse survived to maturity. Upon dissection, a rat kidney was found inside the chimera mouse. Applying this logic on a bigger scale, it would be possible for humans to remove some skin cells, have them converted into stem cells, and then inserted into a pig fetus. When pigs reach maturity, their organs are the same size as a human's. So, a human pancreas/heart/lungs/liver/kidney/whatever could be grown and harvested in a pig. This is perfect for people who need organs donated, since so few donors are out there.

Overall, it was just so astounding to hear about these things that would be happening in the next 5-10 years.  

Goodnight!

I consistently keep forgetting to change my fonts to Helvetica and it's just freaking special

11/5/14

Today was an ehhh day. I have an awful awful headache and I'm just thankful that tomorrow I don't have to worry about doing any homework. I'm gonna be on an AP Bio field trip and won't get back to school until 2:15... just in time to watch Jurassic Park or Finding Nemo in AP Bio. It's looking to be an early night for me.

Goodnight!!!!

I'm too happy for words, both dad and the soccer team won, I'll get to see Andy on Saturday, and all is right with the world!

MY DAD WON!!!!!

IT WAS BY A WHOPPING MAJORITY TOO, HE HAD  AROUND 64% OF THE VOTE!!!! HE DOESN'T HAVE TO RUN AGAIN FOR 6 MORE YEARS!!!!!!!!! Perfect timing to send me to grad school, amirite?!

I'm heading off to dinner and then the campaign watch party now! I still haven't started my homework... oops.....

Anyways, I'll update as soon as I get home as to how things are going! Fingers crossed!!!!!!!

11/4/14- Election Day

Today was fairly uneventful, but not in a bad way. It was almost relaxing. All that's been on my mind since I left school has been the election. I can't help but be a little nervous! I just hope that as the votes are being tallied, there is a clear, almost unsurpassable lead for my dad early on so we can rest easy. Fingers crossed though!
I'm also anxiously awaiting the results of the girls' soccer team's game. If they win, they move on to the state finals and we won't have school on Friday, which would be FANTASTIC!!!!! 

GOODNIGHT!!!!

I have no clue what I'm doing as far as my math homework goes, so I'm calling it quits for the night. I give up.

On the bright side, the biggest parts of my homework are now finished. I still have to read some Macbeth and do a bunch of Stats problems. It could be worse for me though. It's tech week right now, so all the kids in the play right now are just getting home and on to their homework. I really dodged a bullet there. I still miss theater though.

That awkward moment where you forget to change all your fonts