Saturday, March 21, 2015
Good Morning!!!!
Today is about to be incredibly busy; I'm about to get ready to go to the Lacrosse scrimmage I'm training at, then I'm rolling out to go Prom dress shopping with Abby and one of our friends who I hardly ever talk about but adore to pieces, Kaela, then I'm heading over to school to see the school musical (Hello, Dolly!) and I'll be getting honored for my "services on the stage) along with all the other theater seniors. I'm pretty excited about that! I'm definitely looking forward to it all, although I'm still pretty worried as to if I can finish my English work on time this weekend. We'll see!
Friday, March 20, 2015
Uggggggh Somebody Shoot Me
On top of all of those things, I have to worry about my massive English project, finish reading Dracula (I'm close, thank goodness), do a math worksheet, teach myself about the endocrine system and prepare for an AP Bio test on Tuesday, and I need to get my shit together with this upcoming Video Production project. I need to improve my grade there. I at least got some points back today, but I don't think that overall I'll be at a 4.0 this quarter (for the first time ever) unless my religion teacher puts in the bonus points from the extra assignment I did and my AP Bio teacher does the same for me. Like I'm really nervous, my grade could be made or broken. I have too much to do this next week; I'm screwed.
3/20/15
I got home from Lacrosse practice not too long ago. It was uneventful, but apparently there was a fistfight at last night's practice (that I missed, of course).Today had a lot of ups and downs. Obviously, there was the down of my co-editor-in-chief not being fired. I'm incredibly angry about that, but more on that later! First, the good bits.
I had a horrible headache when I woke up this morning, and while I didn't want to go to school, today was the last day of the quarter so I couldn't really miss it. I instead slept in and only missed my first three classes of the day. It was just what I needed!!!!! I stopped at Panera on the way to school and picked up a salad and a bagel for my lunch, and that was pretty nice. When I got to school, I found out that despite her medical emergency, almost dying, and spending the night in the hospital yesterday, my co-editor (ugggh I hate calling her that) was once again back at school. This came as a shock to me because she really shouldn't have been at school at all, what with her leg and ALMOST FUCKING DYING, you'd think she'd choose to stay home. But noooooooo!
I sort of drifted through my other classes, dreading the storm that I thought was coming at the end of the day. She wasn't in class for Newspaper, so I knew something was up. So, I asked the Staff Adviser, and she informed me that the co-editor was to be given a choice: to resign right then and there (which she would never do) or to continue on a probationary status, still keeping her position of authority, where the next time she screws up she's out no questions asked. There's absolutely no way that this girl would quit anything, especially Newspaper. She sees it as her job (which it isn't, it's a fucking high school paper and she makes the experience that should be fun and relatively carefree fucking miserable), and she's had it ingrained in her that quitting is one of the worst things you can do ever. And it's just as likely that she won't change her ways AT ALL and will still be bullying and stomping over everyone and anyone who gets in her way. Well, she can't really storm out of class anymore since she can't even walk thanks to her knee surgery. She hasn't changed all the other times she said she would, so why the fuck would she change now?!
I'm really angry and I feel left out of the decision that was made to give her this option. She hurts the class as a whole; nobody wants to work with her. When she came back, I was the only person that even so much as ACKNOWLEDGED her presence let alone was moderately nice to her. People are afraid of her, they don't respect her, and she doesn't give them a lot of reasons to do so. I am infuriated by the fact that school administration and our adviser chose to hurt everybody else and stifle their chances of growing in that class instead of giving this spoiled, selfish girl the wake-up call that she needs desperately. This is only going to bite them in the ass in the end. God, it makes me want to quit the paper myself. I am beyond sick of her bullshit and the bullshit being thrust upon us now. I can't really quit either though; I already am taking a study hall and can't take two, and then if I quit, everyone would be scrambling on staff because I serve as the voice of reason and as the leader that actually teaches them, advises them, and helps them in a kind, caring, fruitful way as opposed to a cold, dictatorial "boss" who sees them as dog shit.
This turned into a Carmongeddon rant really quickly, but can you blame me?! When I found out that they decided to go ahead and fire her, I had never felt happier this year. I felt relieved, like a major weight had been taken off of my chest. Now I just feel stabbed in the back.
I had a horrible headache when I woke up this morning, and while I didn't want to go to school, today was the last day of the quarter so I couldn't really miss it. I instead slept in and only missed my first three classes of the day. It was just what I needed!!!!! I stopped at Panera on the way to school and picked up a salad and a bagel for my lunch, and that was pretty nice. When I got to school, I found out that despite her medical emergency, almost dying, and spending the night in the hospital yesterday, my co-editor (ugggh I hate calling her that) was once again back at school. This came as a shock to me because she really shouldn't have been at school at all, what with her leg and ALMOST FUCKING DYING, you'd think she'd choose to stay home. But noooooooo!
I sort of drifted through my other classes, dreading the storm that I thought was coming at the end of the day. She wasn't in class for Newspaper, so I knew something was up. So, I asked the Staff Adviser, and she informed me that the co-editor was to be given a choice: to resign right then and there (which she would never do) or to continue on a probationary status, still keeping her position of authority, where the next time she screws up she's out no questions asked. There's absolutely no way that this girl would quit anything, especially Newspaper. She sees it as her job (which it isn't, it's a fucking high school paper and she makes the experience that should be fun and relatively carefree fucking miserable), and she's had it ingrained in her that quitting is one of the worst things you can do ever. And it's just as likely that she won't change her ways AT ALL and will still be bullying and stomping over everyone and anyone who gets in her way. Well, she can't really storm out of class anymore since she can't even walk thanks to her knee surgery. She hasn't changed all the other times she said she would, so why the fuck would she change now?!
I'm really angry and I feel left out of the decision that was made to give her this option. She hurts the class as a whole; nobody wants to work with her. When she came back, I was the only person that even so much as ACKNOWLEDGED her presence let alone was moderately nice to her. People are afraid of her, they don't respect her, and she doesn't give them a lot of reasons to do so. I am infuriated by the fact that school administration and our adviser chose to hurt everybody else and stifle their chances of growing in that class instead of giving this spoiled, selfish girl the wake-up call that she needs desperately. This is only going to bite them in the ass in the end. God, it makes me want to quit the paper myself. I am beyond sick of her bullshit and the bullshit being thrust upon us now. I can't really quit either though; I already am taking a study hall and can't take two, and then if I quit, everyone would be scrambling on staff because I serve as the voice of reason and as the leader that actually teaches them, advises them, and helps them in a kind, caring, fruitful way as opposed to a cold, dictatorial "boss" who sees them as dog shit.
This turned into a Carmongeddon rant really quickly, but can you blame me?! When I found out that they decided to go ahead and fire her, I had never felt happier this year. I felt relieved, like a major weight had been taken off of my chest. Now I just feel stabbed in the back.
Carmongeddon,=: the Finale?
I'm high-key furious right now. She isn't getting fired. What the fuck what the fuck what the fuck.
Thursday, March 19, 2015
3/19/15- I SURVIVED!!!
Today, while I dreaded it severely last night, wasn't nearly as awful as I had expected it to be. However, it was INCREDIBLY eventful!
First thing in the morning, my fellow "editor" hobbled into the room on her crutches. She was clearly incredibly exhausted just from that effort; I had no clue as to how she was going to survive the day. Our staff adviser was at a meeting/appointment at the time, sooooooo basically she still doesn't know that she's been fired yet. It was incredibly awkward; I felt like I was going to vomit!!!!! Everybody else felt uncomfortable as well; I'm the only person who ventured to talk to her. At the end of the period though, all hell broke loose. She turned deathly pale, and started freaking out- she had lost her vision. She was rushed to the ER, and from last I heard they think that a blood clot may be the cause of things. Regardless, she should not have returned to school so early, and this will be further prolonging the time for her to fully return and to be fired...
I kinda feel bad for her since she's getting all this awful stuff piled upon her at once, but the firing issue has been a long time coming.
Today I didn't get to sit by Jack during Mass, but I still looked cute and I managed to sleep adorably nonetheless! I also managed to successfully finish my trailer, and it's VERY much improved. There are still a few small things that I want to tweak tomorrow, but if I don't it won't be the end of the world. My partner and I also decided to go our separate ways for our next project (a music video) and we're both pretty pleased with that!
First thing in the morning, my fellow "editor" hobbled into the room on her crutches. She was clearly incredibly exhausted just from that effort; I had no clue as to how she was going to survive the day. Our staff adviser was at a meeting/appointment at the time, sooooooo basically she still doesn't know that she's been fired yet. It was incredibly awkward; I felt like I was going to vomit!!!!! Everybody else felt uncomfortable as well; I'm the only person who ventured to talk to her. At the end of the period though, all hell broke loose. She turned deathly pale, and started freaking out- she had lost her vision. She was rushed to the ER, and from last I heard they think that a blood clot may be the cause of things. Regardless, she should not have returned to school so early, and this will be further prolonging the time for her to fully return and to be fired...
I kinda feel bad for her since she's getting all this awful stuff piled upon her at once, but the firing issue has been a long time coming.
Today I didn't get to sit by Jack during Mass, but I still looked cute and I managed to sleep adorably nonetheless! I also managed to successfully finish my trailer, and it's VERY much improved. There are still a few small things that I want to tweak tomorrow, but if I don't it won't be the end of the world. My partner and I also decided to go our separate ways for our next project (a music video) and we're both pretty pleased with that!
Wednesday, March 18, 2015
Ugggggggh Goodnight....
Tomorrow isn't even a late start like screw tomorrow ugh. The only thing that'll make it any better is if I look hella cute and sit by my friend Jack at Mass. We always falls asleep and its hilarious. Anywho, wish me luck tomorrow!
Yup, MORE CARMONGEDDON!
On my way to Improv tonight, she texted me and informed me that she's coming back TOMORROW. YUP. EVEN THOUGH SHE CAN'T WALK SHE IS COMING TO SCHOOL AND IS GOING TO RAIN HELLFIRE UPON ALL OF US IT WAS NICE KNOWING ALL OF YOU
Uggggggggggh more Carmongeddon?
Seriously?! Apparently she's returning to school earlier than expected- she plans on coming back to school tomorrow.... We weren't expecting her until next week because SHE CAN'T EVEN WALK RIGHT NOW LIKE HOW IS SHE PLANNING ON GOING TO AND SURVIVING SCHOOL?! It's absolute lunacy!!!!!! Once I heard from her best friend that she's planning on returning, I immediately told the Dean of Students who I spoke with on Monday what was happening and then shot a text to the Adviser so they can prepare in case she actually does make an attempt to return to classes. Especially with Newspaper being the first class of the day...
I hope she doesn't come back tomorrow, because this week has been pretty awesome and I don't want her to ruin it for me.
I hope she doesn't come back tomorrow, because this week has been pretty awesome and I don't want her to ruin it for me.
3/18/15
Today wasn't too shabby! Nothing particularly special happened, but I know that Dylan and Abby are apparently going to Prom together. I don't mind it at all, I just wish that they had told me what they did to ask and the sweet things like that! I know I'll be in a group with them, so that's what matters in the end! I don't really know much about what I'm doing for Prom this year. In terms of a dress and a date. Like I'm going dress shopping with Abby this weekend, so that'll be taken care of soon enough! As for the date, it's a bit more complicated. I wouldn't make Andy come down because I know he'd be miserable and I'd be miserable trying to make him enjoy himself in an environment where he's far from comfortable. I don't really think anyone is going to ask me, although I'd really love it if my friend Jack or Tony did. I'd have a ton of fun with Tony, but I also really enjoy Jack as a person; he's super funny and I always want to get to know him better. Sometimes it just seems like he would prefer to avoid me though, so I'm a bit uncertain about that. The only other people who would probably ask me are creepy guys or guys who I barely know. If I'm in doubt, I'll maybe ask my friend Andrew to come or one of my friends from Newspaper. I'm kinda nervous about that whole thing, I guess. I don't really know why anyone would think of me when it comes to this stuff. Uggggh self-esteem is currently shriveling up, I better throw myself into work, training, improv, more work, and then exercising tonight if I'm ever going to ride it out...
Tuesday, March 17, 2015
3/17/15
Happy St. Patrick's Day everyone!!!!!!! My day today was solid; I was pretty productive. Since I was running around all over the place, I'm extremely tired right now. There's no way I'd ever be able to get any more homework done/work ahead on stuff. I ran back and forth between school and my grandparents' house due to a lacrosse scrimmage and my sister needing a ride home, plus I drove this morning and on the way home for the night! I also took a lengthy, scenic walk around my school's campus. It was pretty nice. There's this gigantic hill that my school sits on top of, and the football field/track/other sports fields are all at the bottom across a bridge through a wooded area. It's very pretty, especially when the sun is shining on beautiful days like today. It was fairly chilly though, and going up the hill was murderous on my thighs!!!! I need the workout though. I may just take another walk tomorrow before the practice, we'll see. I also managed to lay out a page for the paper in less than an hour, so I'm super proud of myself! That's 1/16th of the issue, and it frees me up to help other people with their pages too! So overall that was very productive.
I've basically been dead since I got home, so I'm getting to bed earlier tonight. At least, that's the plan!
I've basically been dead since I got home, so I'm getting to bed earlier tonight. At least, that's the plan!
Monday, March 16, 2015
Lacrosse Practice
Practice today wasn't too shabby! The breeze combined with the occasional sprinkle of rain made things a little rough, but that's survivable! A boy was injured though. He rolled his ankle, but not too severely. We only had to really worry about icing it and making sure that it gets taken care of. Tomorrow we are going to put him in an ice bath again and then tape him up before their scrimmage.
I really like athletic training; I'm pretty good at it, and I really do enjoy helping people. I've never really had a bad year with it. Even when I worked with the Girls Lacrosse team that never really needed me that often, I was never bored or stuck with nothing to do. There's always somebody that needs help, and through training I get to meet and get somewhat close to people who I ordinarily would not give a second glance in the hallway.
I really like athletic training; I'm pretty good at it, and I really do enjoy helping people. I've never really had a bad year with it. Even when I worked with the Girls Lacrosse team that never really needed me that often, I was never bored or stuck with nothing to do. There's always somebody that needs help, and through training I get to meet and get somewhat close to people who I ordinarily would not give a second glance in the hallway.
WOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I'm heading to Lacrosse now and the sun came back, so needless to say, I'm a VERY happy camper!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I love days like today!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
The rest of today was pretty solid as well! I managed to get all my stuff turned in and I don't have too much work to do tonight, so I'm thankful for that! My ass was also saved in Video Production thanks to a deadline extension and footage from a project made two years ago! Plus, the weather was FANTASTIC so when I go to Lacrosse practice later, it'll be pretty pleasant!
3/16/15, or Carmongeddon 2: Electric Boogaloo- the Happy Ending
SHE IS GETTING FIRED THIS IS A GREAT GREAT DAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Not for her, but for everybody else. When I found out, I was so happy I could have cried! She won't find out until she returns to school sometime next week, so there'll be some awful final explosion from her, and she'll probably attack me, but honestly that is worth it in order for her to stop terrorizing the class this year. Everything that I've experienced from her hands will be worth it once she is gone.
Not for her, but for everybody else. When I found out, I was so happy I could have cried! She won't find out until she returns to school sometime next week, so there'll be some awful final explosion from her, and she'll probably attack me, but honestly that is worth it in order for her to stop terrorizing the class this year. Everything that I've experienced from her hands will be worth it once she is gone.
Sunday, March 15, 2015
I'M *basically* FINISHED
THERE WERE LIKE FOUR MATH PROBLEMS THAT I HAD ABSOLUTELY NO IDEA HOW TO DO BUT OTHER THAN THAT I AM ALL DONE WITH MY HOMEWORK LIKE GO ME I AM SO SO PROUD OF MYSELF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'M ABOUT TO EXERCISE AND PACK A GOOD LUNCH AND WORK AHEAD ON SOME STUFF LIKE YAAASSSSS EMILY YASSSSSS GO ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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