I FORGOT I HAD TO FINISH AN AP BIO LAB FOR TOMORROW AND I STILL HAVEN'T DONE ANY OF MY OTHER HOMEWORK I RETRACT EVERYTHING I SAID EARLIER ABOUT PROGRESS I AM BEHIND I AM SO SO SOOOOO BEHIND!!!! I HATE EVERYTHING.

I've made a ton of headway on my research paper tonight, yay!!!!!!!!! Unfortunately for me, I haven't done ANY of my other work!

Welp, it turns out my mom remembered that I was all grounded and stuff, so once again I'm phoneless. The fact that I don't have my phone to play games or surf the internet with is not what bothers me, it's the fact that I have absolutely NO connection to any people. That's what's driving me insane. Even then, I wouldn't say I'm going insane so much as feeling down and depressed more. I have absolutely no motivation as a side effect of that. I at least get to see a lot of my friends at school, but that means nothing when I can't talk to my closest friend and confidante at all. I'm incredibly lonely when I don't have Andy to talk to. If I can at least talk to him every day, I don't have to miss him as much. Even when I'm hundreds of miles away from him for college or even just vacations, being in near-constant contact with him makes things infinitely less unbearable and miserable; when I have had a terrible, rotten, no-good, bad day I can't turn to him to vent/seek advice from or to cheer up. I have to sit there and dwell on my thoughts and dwell on my loneliness. I can't bear that much longer. I miss Andy and I just want to be able to talk to him again. 

Ugggggggggghhhhh

I don't feel like doing anything tonight blehhhhhhhh shoot me please and thank you in advance...

I have sooooo much work to get done it's driving me insane. I'm also starting to feel a little bit under the weather. And of course, there's the whole "I'm really really lonely since I can't talk to anybody" thing... 

I also hope this "grounding" which is essentially pointless, comes to an end soon and very soon. I miss Andy and my friends.

12/3/14

Today wasn't nearly as bleh as yesterday was. I'm just a little worried about the whole Bat Mitzvah/Work on Saturday situation. I know my mom was calling in, and it was not exactly pretty... When she wants something, she can be incredibly intimidating for a 5'2" woman. I admire it in her, but I really hope that it doesn't cost me my job this time around...

Goodnight!

I think my mom may have forgotten that I've been "grounded." By the end of the day tomorrow, I'm betting that she'll completely forget about everything. Until then, I'm calling it a night!

On the bright side, my parents brought me birthday cake ice cream which was pretty glorious! And I got a lot of work done on  my Stats project and my homework for religion. I'm still nowhere close to where I had planned to be for my research paper though, oops...

12/2/14

Today. Was. AWFUL. Absolutely horrible in almost every possible way. Everything overall was just incredibly difficult, and Honors Government has officially put me over the edge. This boy in my class wrote a particularly awful bill for the Congress project and was absolutely butthurt by the response he got to it. Another girl and primarily myself tore it to shreds, so since his pride has been hurt, he has a vendetta against her and I, but mostly me since I made him look like an idiot for his weak arguments. Anywho, I had to re-present my bill for the "Senate" and I knew that he most certainly would try to do something to try to trip me up, and sure enough, he bombarded me with rude questions that I gave witty and sassy responses to, then tried to filibuster me by reading from Mein Kampf. Yup. Mein Kampf. He continues to harass me outside of class, and if he keeps this behavior up, I'm going to have to confront him. If it came to that, I would simply apologize for hurting his pride, but tell him that he's taking things too far and that he needs to grow up. 

I'm just so so so so sick of that class and the majority of the people in it.

Goodnight

I'm calling it a night. I'm gonna truck through this week as fast as I can, and that's what I'm going to concentrate on. Goodnight.

12/1/14

I'm currently knee-deep in research papers now, but it's a huge relief to no longer have to worry about my stock market project for Economics. I'm just counting down to the end of the semester, it's all I can do at this point. 

School today wasn't overly terrible, it just wasn't my idea of joyful. Everything has just been "projects, projects, papers, projects, articles, exams, tests, projects, homework, projects, debates, papers, exams, exams, projects...." On the bright side, my grades have been going up and my GPA is at the highest it's been since school started this year! I mean I'll never have a 4.553 like I did at the end of the second week of school ever again, but a girl can dream! I'm having less and less B's, and if I did as well on my AP Bio test last week as I've been hoping I did, I'm going to be in fantastic shape at the end of this quarter!

I managed to go with my sister to take our dog on a 2-mile long walk. It was a nice distraction, but it wasn't really enough to get me through the day. I just want to curl up in a ball because I'm sore and lonely.

I can't wait one bit until next semester when I have a study hall and Advanced Video Production and no more Honors Government or Economics, get my scholarship applications and housing business done for college, and so on. I just can't wait to be finished with all of that stuff. 

I can hardly wait until the end of the week, for that matter. Not getting to talk to Andy every day has been driving me crazy, and it's only been about 24 hours since the whole debacle started. It makes me miss him. I miss being able to talk to my friends and play games and stuff too. I don't enjoy being grounded in this way at all. It's too lonely, and I hate being away from Andy and my friends like this. How am I going to make it through the week, let alone to Wednesday?!

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I'M SORRY FOR THE ALL-CAPS, I'M JUST REALLY EXCITED HERE!!!!!!!!

WOOP WOOP I'M DONE WITH MY STOCK PROJECT

NOW I CAN JUST WORK ON MY RESEARCH ESSAY UNTIL IT'S TIME TO GET TO BED!

Overall I'm just really stressed out, and it's not fun at all. 

GROUNDED

Last night, my mom discovered my texts to my sister that contained profanity, which lead to her digging up every little thing of mine (except for this blog), going through it, bemoaning my language, and grounding me from the use of my phone. I'm not sure if this will affect my work on this blog much, but I can never be too sure. I also have a lot on my plate this week with one-act rehearsals starting up, orthodontist appointments, and trying to find a replacement for work on Saturday so I can go to a close friend's Bat Mitzvah. I'm keeping my fingers crossed with that last one. My mom will kill me if I don't go. I also have to finish a research paper this week because I won't have the time to do it over the weekend. 

Well, I've been kinda productive but not really for the past few hours, so go me!

I'VE ACTUALLY MADE PROGRESS WHAT IS THIS?!

That's right, I've done things!!!!! I got things done!!!!! THIS IS REAL LIFE!!!!!!!

I DON'T WANNA DO ANYTHING

As much as I despise the song, "Lazy Song" by Bruno Mars basically sums up my day. I have no motivation. I want to nap. I don't want to go to school tomorrow. I wanna jump off a cliff when I get to Honors Government... I wanna jump off a cliff just because I can.... 

Welp, my biology homework passed by surprisingly quickly! Now I just have to work on my Stock Market project for Economics and my domestic violence research paper for Morality! Aaaaaaand all the chores my mom has lined up for me...

I also want to try to get some exercise today. It just occurred to me that I'm going to be in Aruba over spring break, which means swimsuits and beaches and stuff... 

I wonder if I can match the pageviews I had last month.... I need about 100 more by the end of the day to get there, but I think I can handle that! Maybe. I really don't know. I guess it doesn't make much of a difference in the end, all that matters is that someone, somewhere is reading my blog and knows that I exist, and that's pretty freaking cool.

Oops...

Ohhh yikes I feel really bad because I've basically ignored my other two blogs all through the past week. I've gotta try to be better about posting on those blogs, but I've just been so so so so busy over break. I mean even my personal blog (this one) hasn't had nearly as many posts on it as per usual! Holidays always kinda mess me up when it comes to my motivation and stuff.

Also, I completely forgot that December is tomorrow and I still need to get some presents for people... oops.....

That shows how much attention I've been paying to the time all-around. 

I really need to kick my ass into gear with my homework- I haven't done a single thing that I had planned to do over break as far as the essays and projects go...

Yesterday

Yesterday I spent the day with Andy which is why I didn't blog at all. It was a fantastic day all around, and I already can't wait to see him again over Christmas break!