I'm so freaking nervous about tomorrow. SO. SO. NERVOUS.
I'm nervous about Newspaper because my story and design were due days ago. I'm nervous for AP Bio because I'm thisclose to having to take an additional exam and I cannot afford to miss a single point on ANY assignment, and I mean any! I'm nervous about video production because I still have no footage for one of my projects. I'm nervous for AP Stats because I have no clue as to what is happening. I'm nervous about all my AP Tests because I just don't feel ready at all. I feel so so overwhelmed.
And I'm nervous about asking my friend to Prom as well. Like I know he'll say yes, but it's still super nerve-wracking, like what if I mess up all my words and just sound and look like a complete idiot? What if, minutes before I ask, somebody else does so he has to say no to me? What if there's somehow something unattractive about me in that moment and he gets super grossed out? Like I know a lot of this is super unlikely, but it's still every bit as terrifying, ya know?
I just need to really really really relax, not have to go to school for a few weeks, and forget about everything. I feel so flustered, confused, nervous, and overall on edge about everything. Like I'm simultaneously super excited and super terrified to face the day tomorrow. It really shouldn't be like this but I can't help it!!!!!!!
Sunday, April 26, 2015
She took my phone away again because I didn't have my makeup on at a certain point for the second round of my senior pictures! It's not like I was dicking around all day on my phone, I was working on homework and doing laundry FOR HER so what the fuck is she trying to punish me for? Being studious? What the fuck?!
Needless to say I can't wait to not have to deal with her shit and irrational punishments in college. Just a few more months!
Needless to say I can't wait to not have to deal with her shit and irrational punishments in college. Just a few more months!
Ugggggggggh I hate/love life and I'm having a lot of conflicting feelings!
I've got good news, but first I have to go through all the blehhhhhhh first.
So Friday I got a text from a number that I didn't recognize. It turned out that it was this guy who has been stalking me and pretty much every other girl in my grade since about sophomore year, searching for a Prom date. Even though I'm looking, I'm not that desperate! I avoided him like the plague, and since have decided to take my fate into my own hands. That's right. I'm asking somebody instead of being asked.
However, Saturday things had turned for the better! I not only got to have brunch and a lovely walk in the park with Andy, but I also got all dolled up for some senior photos, and I love getting dolled up! I took a luxurious bubble bath (I used a bubble bar and a bath bomb from LUSH, the water was incredibly pink and smelled amazing), and then got some wonderful news! The guy who I'm planning on asking is thinking of a way to ask me, but he still wants me to ask first because he's very shy. That really made me feel a lot less nervous/terrified, so I'm thankful for that.
Currently I'm stressing over homework and grades. I'm in grave danger of having to take an exam in AP Bio in addition to the AP Test, and that really freaking scares me. I'm so so screwed. I'm also in relative danger in AP Stats because I'm so so sooooooooooo screwed for that AP Test, I don't have a clue as to what I'm doing in the multiple choice sections.
So Friday I got a text from a number that I didn't recognize. It turned out that it was this guy who has been stalking me and pretty much every other girl in my grade since about sophomore year, searching for a Prom date. Even though I'm looking, I'm not that desperate! I avoided him like the plague, and since have decided to take my fate into my own hands. That's right. I'm asking somebody instead of being asked.
However, Saturday things had turned for the better! I not only got to have brunch and a lovely walk in the park with Andy, but I also got all dolled up for some senior photos, and I love getting dolled up! I took a luxurious bubble bath (I used a bubble bar and a bath bomb from LUSH, the water was incredibly pink and smelled amazing), and then got some wonderful news! The guy who I'm planning on asking is thinking of a way to ask me, but he still wants me to ask first because he's very shy. That really made me feel a lot less nervous/terrified, so I'm thankful for that.
Currently I'm stressing over homework and grades. I'm in grave danger of having to take an exam in AP Bio in addition to the AP Test, and that really freaking scares me. I'm so so screwed. I'm also in relative danger in AP Stats because I'm so so sooooooooooo screwed for that AP Test, I don't have a clue as to what I'm doing in the multiple choice sections.
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