Yep, it's a guy again. Specifically, the guy I mentioned in my last post.
He's great, really, he is! He just has a tendency to get me really nervous. Aaaand that's sort of caused some drama between us. The drama has passed, but here's a recap:
- Being a person who needs constant validation and reassurance that, yes, I am liked and that I'm not being led on (as I was so frequently last quarter), I started to get extremely anxious because I didn't know where I stood with him.
- I finally worked up the courage to just ask where I stood with him, and it was not a fun time! Basically he said stuff that made him want to put his foot in his mouth and had hurt my feelings, and it created a rift.
- Dramatic texts ensue that nearly brought me to tears and definitely didn't make him feel great, so I basically said "shut up, this is scaring me. I'll talk to you tomorrow." I apologized later, and we started to talk about all of our baggage.
- He was scared about moving too fast into things because he has dated some pretty not-good people and doesn't really want to let people in until he feels that he knows them incredibly well. I understand that, and I'm pretty down with that. I'm more than happy to move at his pace, he means a lot to me.
After all of that, we went out the next day to get coffee, and it went really well! It was a really fun time overall, and we're already planning on our next date thing. The plan right now is to basically go out on fun, non-committal dates until we* decide if we want to get serious about this and start an actual relationship. I think we will get there, honestly. We have so much in common already, have become really close for the limited amount of time that we've known each other, and have excellent chemistry. And despite my flaws, I'm still quite a gem. He can already see that, it's just a matter of time until everything comes together.
I'm pretty hopeful about this I've got my chin held high, and I don't think I'm going to be let down this time.
Knock on wood, though.
*really it's his final decision. I want to enter a relationship with him, but it all comes down to if he wants to let me in, in the end.
