I've done it

I quit the play. I can't believe I did it.

9/12/14

This is one of the worst days of my life. The cast list came out, and I was completely blindsided. The director didn't double cast the show and I got a really shitty part. I felt really really awful, and I think I might quit the show. I want to talk it through with the director, but I just don't know. I'm already overstretched as it is, and my health is turning to shambles and I don't think I can handle the time and the effort for something I don't care about.

Goodnight

I'm done, I'm defeated, I give up. Goodnight. Hopefully tomorrow will be ok. Just not terrible, that's all I want. Just a day where I don't want to cry my eyes out and I can actually concentrate on something. I wish I had the power to give up everything, but with the classes I'm taking that is not an option. My only hope is to make it through this semester. Then I know that I'll survive this year.

I finally finished the lab report for AP Biology, but I still have a bunch of work to do tonight alone.What's even worse is that I don't even get to enjoy sleeping in tomorrow because my mom scheduled a dermatoligist appointment at 7:45... That and then getting bagels with my sister was the only thought getting me through the week, and now it's gone.

I did another homework! It was a big one, this time!!!! Now onto the next one...

I did ONE homework... that's gotta count for something...

9/10/14

Today was a pretty boring day as far as school goes. Just a lot of bleh. On the bright side, tomorrow is a late start Thursday, so at least I'll get to sleep in!

I had callbacks after school. I'm feeling fairly confident about the play in general, so yay!

After callbacks, I went to my sister's golf match. There was a tornado warning so I was trapped there for quite some time with her and her team. I'm glad to be home now, I just have zero motivation for working on my homework!

Goodnight, y'all!

Don't let the bedbugs bite!

Goodnight, y'all!

Don't let the bedbugs bite!

Awww the showmance in my improv group ended and they're both really sad and it's bleh. Breakups are the worst, whether it's your own or friends breaking up.

bleh.

9/9/14

No surprise: I have a callback audition tomorrow. I have such a horrible headache that I'm not even going to bother studying for my Economics test tomorrow or doing my math homework. Getting as far as I did making a lab report for AP Bio is a miracle in itself, so I'm calling it a night as far as homework goes.

TODAY WAS AWFUL AND THAT'S ALL I HAVE TO SAY.

Goodnight!

I'm calling it quits. Goodnight all!

aaaaaaand it didn't. Ok. Cool.

Also, blogger has been posting all of my posts twice for some reason, and I can't quite delete a post for some reason! So sorry for all of that! I'm sure this post will repeat anyways, just because.

Another Surprise!

I actually finished all of my homework on time and before midnight!!!!!!!!!! This is cause for celebration, but instead I'm just gonna keep working on stuff for newspaper!

Another Surprise!

I actually finished all of my homework on time and before midnight!!!!!!!!!! This is cause for celebration, but instead I'm just gonna keep working on stuff for newspaper!

Surprise surprise, I'm actually doing well on my mountain of homework...

Surprise surprise, I'm actually doing well on my mountain of homework...

Oh, and it's also my dad's 50th birthday today!

9/8/14

Auditions today went pretty well! There were a ton of kids who had never done theater ever before, so it sucks for them since there are only 10 speaking parts and our director is more likely to pick people he trusts and has worked with before...

I'm feeling pretty confident.

Other things from today:
My co-editor-in-chief had a hissy fit today because nobody had their stories completely ready and she was mad at the world for not bending to her will. She started snapping and yelling at everyone, even our adviser. Being around her gives me headaches. I appreciate her skills, but I do not appreciate the way she treats other people: as if all they are are means to an end for her. Preferably an end where she gets all the praise for her contributions.
It's really annoying, because while I'm busting my ass helping people out any way I can, writing my three stories in three days, and editing stories for the paper she won't even take the time to write one! I understand that she does design work, but if she's going to enforce a standard, she sure as hell shouldn't be exempt from it. That's my philosophy. I just feel bad about the situation overall.

Goodnight

I'm too tired to carry on right now. I did a ton of work this weekend, and I know that only more is coming my way. It's super reassuring! Goodnight, don't let the massive amounts of work bite!

Goodnight

I'm too tired to carry on right now. I did a ton of work this weekend, and I know that only more is coming my way. It's super reassuring! Goodnight, don't let the massive amounts of work bite!

AND I'M INCREDIBLY TIRED OUT FROM ALL OF IT LIKE CAN THE UNIVERSE NOT? K THANKS!