Goodnight!!!!!!

I'm done.

I give up. I've done as much as I possibly could on my paper, so now I'm just going to go other my other homework and call it a night.

My Birthday, Continued

I'm sore, I'm tired, and I just want to go to bed. Only a handful of people actually knew it was my birthday today. I know I shouldn't feel sad about that, but I can't really help it. Plus, my mom is mad at me for a bunch of little things and stupid mistakes I've made throughout the day, and then my sister hasn't exactly been very nice to me. Plus, I still have that stupid research paper to finish! On the bright side, Andy sent me a box of chocolate covered strawberries and a super-sweet note, and it was wonderful to come home to that surprise!

Ugggggggggh school....

My Birthday so Far

It's been a pretty good day for me so far, but I'm working on one of the stupidest research papers ever and it's giving me a migraine.

My final show...

I can't believe that tomorrow night marks the end of my theater career. I wish it could have lasted forever. Theater gives me the most sensational rush, but I just don't think I'm good enough to ever make a career out of acting and the like. Even if I diversified my skill-set, it'd sill be a struggle for me. That's kinda a reason why I'm pursuing film. Nonetheless, I will relish every last second I have onstage: no matter how small the audience, how many people are there to support me, how I do with my lines, no matter what I will be taking it all in.

One thing that has been bothering me has been the amount of people in the theater program who say things like "Ugh, I'm just so done with this" or "I can't wait for this to be over." That's not the spirit to have!!!!!! You never know which show will truly be your last. I know this is going to be my final scripted role, and that makes me deeply sad. When I think back on quitting Fools this year, I really regret it. If I had known last fall that that would have been my final Fall Play, I would have been so much more appreciative of every second on that crappy, gymatorium stage.

I know some of these people have a few years before they take their last bows, and other seniors have the school musical as their last show, but that pisspoor attitude needs to stop, because what we have is something wonderful and they are completely taking it for granted. And what's more- those underclassmen who are "so done" with a show can leave. Nobody is forcing them to be a part of the theater program. It's not a civic duty. It's a choice, and if you make the choice but regret it, please don't ruin the fun for the people that do.

I'm in my study hall now. I should really be working on my research paper, but at this point I'm too tired to care. 

Apparently nobody is seeing any of my scheduled posts that have come up so far.... Okay, Blogger.....

At least I'm spending the big one-eight with people who mean a lot to me (despite how absolutely annoying several of them are)! And this weekend will be great, Andy's coming down to see me, Abby, Dylan, and POSSIBLY Tony (if he can ever get his schedule to work out) and I are going out to get lunch. On top of that, I'll get to get my filming finished on Saturday, and it'll turn out pretty nicely in the end! My family is coming over to celebrate my birthday in two weeks, so I'm pretty excited for that. By then, my ankle should be just fine as well! It's going to be fantastic, I just know it!!!!!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!!!

It's my first birthday while I've owned this blog!!!!! And now I'm a legal adult!!!! But let's be honest, that doesn't mean anything for another three years when I turn 21. *deep sigh*

Guess what time it is....................

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME, HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAR EMILY, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!!!!!

I AM OFFICIALLY AN ADULT EXCEPT NOT REALLY BUT FUCK IT I LOVE THIS!!!!!!!!

Goodnight!!!!!!

I'm not quite at 10% yet, so I'm just going to give up now and get to bed. Hopefully my charger cords arrive sooner rather than later. I did queue some posts for tomorrow and even into the next day, since I'll have limited access to a computer. Keep your thoughts with me tomorrow and Friday, even if it's only for a few seconds! Whether for my birthday, ankle, stress levels, diet, or show, please think of me!

Speaking of Milestones.....

I've passed 850 posts!!!!!!!! I mean, most of them are incredibly short, but for a person as apt to change and apt to give up as I am, this is a pretty huge deal as well as a wonderful sign of commitment. I'm proud of me, to be honest!

I still have 20%..... I guess that means 20% more posts for tomorrow?

Right now my cat is asleep on the foot that I'm not icing and it's super precious!!!!!

28% Battery... Let's do this.....

I'm going to try to queue up a few posts for tomorrow, that way there's SOMETHING here if I don't have access to a computer in the evening. 

Tomorrow

Oh my goodness I'm going to be 18 tomorrow.... I'm sure a bazillion people are going to forget all about my birthday, but the people who matter will remember and that's what counts! Even though it's my birthday, I'm still going to be having an interesting time trying to balance my ankle, my shows, and my homework. There won't really be much time for celebrating, unfortunately. 

Speaking of my ankle, I really need to take it easier tomorrow. It's super sore, and when I have the ice pack on it it almost stings! I just want it to be better and to go back to normal. Tomorrow, I at least won't have to climb any ladders or lift heavy loads. I don't want to return to the boot at any cost, so I'll take what I can get! I'll go easy on the stairs as well and try to take the elevator from time to time. 

I also wish really badly that I could exercise again. I really miss seeing the visible results, and I'm worried that I'll gain back the weight that I lost from not being able to do too much. I am basically limited to crunches, arm circles, and anything upper-body, which I don't have to many options for.

So I just want to heal as fast as humanly possible, because I just want to be okay and to get back on track!

I did get pretty far. With my study hall tomorrow and on Friday before class, I should be able to finish the paper just fine, laptop or not! I'm just going to devote my final moments with battery to blogging, and just winding down for the night. I found the power-saver mode on this thing FINALLY so things are looking up a little bit! 

I have only 45% of my battery left, so I may as well give up in a few minutes. At least I'll have a power cord by the time the week ends!

I placed an order for not one, but two new chargers on Amazon.com and it should arrive by Friday! It's nice that I only had to pay $12.80 for two chargers, plus it'll be nice to have a backup/spare for when the next one breaks. I have the worst luck with chargers, really. I constantly need new ones or need to replace chargers.It's a pain in the ass, especially since phone chargers and the like are about $25-$30! That's a quarter to half of my average paycheck!!!!!

At least this forces me to work harder on my research paper since my ability to work on it tomorrow night is extremely limited.

At this point, I just want a new laptop. I'm going to need one for school anyways, so why not get it for my birthday?!

Screw chargers, honestly.

It couldn't have come at a worse time, either! I have to do a research paper; like COME ON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!