Friday, April 3, 2015
SPRING BREAAAAAAAK!!!!!!!!!!!!
I am SO happy that I'm done with school for the next week! I'm beyond tired from everything. I've been gone for about two days, so here's a quick update on how that all went!
On Wednesday I had my last day of school. There were a lot of sucky moments, though. In Video Production, while trying to upload my footage for one of my videos, we discovered that every last bit of it was gone. I nearly cried. I also fell off our bus when we arrived at the lacrosse away game. Everyone was really helpful getting me back on my feet, making sure I was okay (I landed on my bad ankle, of course), and offering to carry all my stuff for me. That was the final sucky part of the day, though. Varsity won 17-5, and JV had a tie. Varsity played first, which is the best because then they all love to hang out and talk with the trainers afterwards. I got to be part of a cuddle puddle and it was really warm and pleasant. They also brought me food, it was so sweet! This year has easily been the best year for training for me. My first year I was with the Girls Lacrosse team. They were all nice, but I hardly had anything to do, and I never really felt included in things with the team. Last year I worked with the Track team. That was fun because I had a lot to do, but since I never had to go to any of their meets, I never really got to bond with anyone on the team. This year however, I feel like I'm a part of their team. The boys and the coaches are kind and inclusive, and they make training enjoyable. Even the practices in terrible weather are fun, because I get to be a part of it. Like yesterday they had a small practice since half the team is on vacation. I had made Gatorade for them as a present for winning, and that went over very well. I also got to "officiate" the game as the sole referee, even though I don't know the majority of the rules. It was still very fun to get to be that involved!
Yesterday before the practice, I had to take my sister to school for this leadership workshop that she was doing from 8-12. I had two hours to kill before practice, so I helped my mom out by making some decorations for a school fundraiser. After practice, my sister and I got lunch at Swenson's, a wonderful burger place, then drove up to Cleveland to visit a mall. I got a Prom dress (YAAAAY!!!!!!!!!!!) from Cache and two other dresses from Express, as well as a pair of dress pants and some bath bombs/bubble bars from Lush. I'm pretty happy with my dress for Prom! While it's nothing like the one I really wanted to get, I still look and feel gorgeous in it. My sister said I looked like a Greek goddess in it, and I agree! It's a very flowy, cream and gold dress with a beautiful high neckline. Now, all I need is a date! When we got home, I took a long nap, then ate a bagel sandwich around 8:30 before heading back to bed for the night. I was incredibly tired out.
This morning has been pretty uneventful. I got to sleep in for the first time in AGES, but I have terrible cramps right now. Later, I'll get to pack for Aruba. Thank goodness for Spring Break!!!!!!!!!!!!!
On Wednesday I had my last day of school. There were a lot of sucky moments, though. In Video Production, while trying to upload my footage for one of my videos, we discovered that every last bit of it was gone. I nearly cried. I also fell off our bus when we arrived at the lacrosse away game. Everyone was really helpful getting me back on my feet, making sure I was okay (I landed on my bad ankle, of course), and offering to carry all my stuff for me. That was the final sucky part of the day, though. Varsity won 17-5, and JV had a tie. Varsity played first, which is the best because then they all love to hang out and talk with the trainers afterwards. I got to be part of a cuddle puddle and it was really warm and pleasant. They also brought me food, it was so sweet! This year has easily been the best year for training for me. My first year I was with the Girls Lacrosse team. They were all nice, but I hardly had anything to do, and I never really felt included in things with the team. Last year I worked with the Track team. That was fun because I had a lot to do, but since I never had to go to any of their meets, I never really got to bond with anyone on the team. This year however, I feel like I'm a part of their team. The boys and the coaches are kind and inclusive, and they make training enjoyable. Even the practices in terrible weather are fun, because I get to be a part of it. Like yesterday they had a small practice since half the team is on vacation. I had made Gatorade for them as a present for winning, and that went over very well. I also got to "officiate" the game as the sole referee, even though I don't know the majority of the rules. It was still very fun to get to be that involved!
Yesterday before the practice, I had to take my sister to school for this leadership workshop that she was doing from 8-12. I had two hours to kill before practice, so I helped my mom out by making some decorations for a school fundraiser. After practice, my sister and I got lunch at Swenson's, a wonderful burger place, then drove up to Cleveland to visit a mall. I got a Prom dress (YAAAAY!!!!!!!!!!!) from Cache and two other dresses from Express, as well as a pair of dress pants and some bath bombs/bubble bars from Lush. I'm pretty happy with my dress for Prom! While it's nothing like the one I really wanted to get, I still look and feel gorgeous in it. My sister said I looked like a Greek goddess in it, and I agree! It's a very flowy, cream and gold dress with a beautiful high neckline. Now, all I need is a date! When we got home, I took a long nap, then ate a bagel sandwich around 8:30 before heading back to bed for the night. I was incredibly tired out.
This morning has been pretty uneventful. I got to sleep in for the first time in AGES, but I have terrible cramps right now. Later, I'll get to pack for Aruba. Thank goodness for Spring Break!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Tuesday, March 31, 2015
3/31/15
Today wasn't too shabby! Once I finished my major English project last night, things got somewhat better for me. Today was a bit of a lazy day. My Religion test was a piece of cake, and I'm glad that it'll be out of the way. I still have an AP Stats test and another AP Bio quiz tomorrow. After that though, I'll finally be on Spring break!!!!!
I had a pretty solid nap in school today under a table in our newspaper room during my study hall. It was the perfect length, I loved it! That was the highlight of my day!
Tonight was the first Home Lacrosse game. The boys lost, but they did better than they had expected, which is always nice. They have an away game tomorrow and it's supposed to be warm out, but there are also supposed to be thunderstorms with it.
Now all I have left to do is finish off my math homework and study a little more for AP Bio, then I'm done!!!!
I had a pretty solid nap in school today under a table in our newspaper room during my study hall. It was the perfect length, I loved it! That was the highlight of my day!
Tonight was the first Home Lacrosse game. The boys lost, but they did better than they had expected, which is always nice. They have an away game tomorrow and it's supposed to be warm out, but there are also supposed to be thunderstorms with it.
Now all I have left to do is finish off my math homework and study a little more for AP Bio, then I'm done!!!!
Monday, March 30, 2015
Meh
Ugggggggh I really don't wanna do my homework, but I NEED to turn in my English project tomorrow OR ELSE!!!! On the bright side, I only have like 2 and a half reflections left to write, and then all kinds of math homework to do...
I'm Back!
Ugggggh I'm so so tired, last week was too busy and the past week has been beyond hectic. I've hardly gotten anything done or gotten any sleep whatsoever! I forget when my last post was, but there was another away lacrosse game the night after that. The team got killed, but it was okay because they had expected to lose. I got home super late and then had to pack up my bag for the State Theater Conference the next day.
I survived the few classes I had before being dismissed for the conference. We had to pack up a giant truck with all of the set pieces, costumes, and tech equipment which took about an hour or so. The bus ride down to Columbus was easily the worst two and a half hours of my life. I was originally sitting on my own, then last second this random boy who I don't know ran on the bus, saw that I was on my own and sat down. I didn't want to be close to him so I was pressed up against the window. The seat was right on top of the heater for the bus, and if you are unfamiliar with American schoolbus heaters, let me tell you that they are a bitch. Your feet will be burned off unless you lift them up. So basically, I was practically curled into a ball in the seat with this boy who, while he is significantly smaller than I am, took up more than 3/4 of the space because he HAD TO SPREAD HIS FUCKING LEGS. SORRY SON, BUT YOU DON'T NEED THAT MUCH BALL ROOM. Uggggggh that was awful.
Then we kinda rushed around all weekend between the hotel and the conference. Our show went over fantastically, and had a flawless performance! I saw two other fantastic shows, Legally Blonde: the Musical and The Foreigner. The majority of the shows I saw were shit. I didn't go to a single workshop while I was there because 1.) the timing conflicted with shows I was going to see or the show I was working on or 2.) the workshop topic wasn't remotely interesting to me. Like they have a lot of improv workshops, but those are terrible because every theater kid and their mother goes and wants to participate and there's a lot of yelling and people thinking that they're god's gift to humor when they aren't.
The food at the conference was atrocious. A bunch of kids got food poisoning from one of the dinner options from Saturday night. The choices were either "Chinese" or Lasagna, and the lasagna gave people food poisoning. When I opened my boxed Chinese meal, the fried rice was a deep brown/green color and a limp egg roll I threw out after I took two gross bites. When the highlight of the Festival's food was the Cosmic Brownie thrown in the dinner box, you know the food is atrocious. The whole thing was terribly organized as well. Like the schedule is on this "Guidebook" app, and a bunch of things that were at the conference weren't on the schedule! For instance, a school was performing The Crucible, which is one of my favorite plays, and it wasn't in the guidebook at all! I would have rather seen The Crucible than the shitty Dr. Who- themed show any day of the week!
Getting home and sleeping in my own bed was the best thing that happened, honestly.
With everything going on in my life, I have been incredibly stressed out and I've been feeling depressed lately. I just don't have much zeal for the things I love anymore. I just want to stay in bed all day, and randomly throughout the day I have to fight the urge to cry, and I hardly ever have a reason to cry. I need Spring Break to come faster, even though my Aruba body is nowhere near ready yet.
I survived the few classes I had before being dismissed for the conference. We had to pack up a giant truck with all of the set pieces, costumes, and tech equipment which took about an hour or so. The bus ride down to Columbus was easily the worst two and a half hours of my life. I was originally sitting on my own, then last second this random boy who I don't know ran on the bus, saw that I was on my own and sat down. I didn't want to be close to him so I was pressed up against the window. The seat was right on top of the heater for the bus, and if you are unfamiliar with American schoolbus heaters, let me tell you that they are a bitch. Your feet will be burned off unless you lift them up. So basically, I was practically curled into a ball in the seat with this boy who, while he is significantly smaller than I am, took up more than 3/4 of the space because he HAD TO SPREAD HIS FUCKING LEGS. SORRY SON, BUT YOU DON'T NEED THAT MUCH BALL ROOM. Uggggggh that was awful.
Then we kinda rushed around all weekend between the hotel and the conference. Our show went over fantastically, and had a flawless performance! I saw two other fantastic shows, Legally Blonde: the Musical and The Foreigner. The majority of the shows I saw were shit. I didn't go to a single workshop while I was there because 1.) the timing conflicted with shows I was going to see or the show I was working on or 2.) the workshop topic wasn't remotely interesting to me. Like they have a lot of improv workshops, but those are terrible because every theater kid and their mother goes and wants to participate and there's a lot of yelling and people thinking that they're god's gift to humor when they aren't.
The food at the conference was atrocious. A bunch of kids got food poisoning from one of the dinner options from Saturday night. The choices were either "Chinese" or Lasagna, and the lasagna gave people food poisoning. When I opened my boxed Chinese meal, the fried rice was a deep brown/green color and a limp egg roll I threw out after I took two gross bites. When the highlight of the Festival's food was the Cosmic Brownie thrown in the dinner box, you know the food is atrocious. The whole thing was terribly organized as well. Like the schedule is on this "Guidebook" app, and a bunch of things that were at the conference weren't on the schedule! For instance, a school was performing The Crucible, which is one of my favorite plays, and it wasn't in the guidebook at all! I would have rather seen The Crucible than the shitty Dr. Who- themed show any day of the week!
Getting home and sleeping in my own bed was the best thing that happened, honestly.
With everything going on in my life, I have been incredibly stressed out and I've been feeling depressed lately. I just don't have much zeal for the things I love anymore. I just want to stay in bed all day, and randomly throughout the day I have to fight the urge to cry, and I hardly ever have a reason to cry. I need Spring Break to come faster, even though my Aruba body is nowhere near ready yet.
Thursday, March 26, 2015
Uggggggggggh I can't focus in study hall at all right now....
There's this incredibly obnoxious and loud group of Freshmen sitting across the table from me and I can't concentrate on my poetry analysis project at ALL. Tonight is going to kill me. I want to turn in my poetry project tomorrow but I will probably get home some time around 10:30, I have to pack my stuff for States, and there's no way I'll have the energy to work and finish this tonight. I'm getting nowhere, ugggggggh.
I think I'll do what I can tonight, but I think I'll just have to turn my project in on Monday. That may be the only viable option. Nonetheless I am ridiculously tired out and ridiculously annoyed with the Freshmen sitting in front of me.
I think I'll do what I can tonight, but I think I'll just have to turn my project in on Monday. That may be the only viable option. Nonetheless I am ridiculously tired out and ridiculously annoyed with the Freshmen sitting in front of me.
Yesterday
Yesterday wasn't nearly as abysmal as Monday was, but it still was ehhhh. The lacrosse team had an away game, which they won (yay!), but it was pretty far away. When I got home, I was completely dead. I was barely able to stay awake.
Tuesday, March 24, 2015
Goodnight...
I got next to nothing done tonight. There's no way in hell that I'll be finished with this project by the time I leave for the State Theater Conference, especially with two away games...
Uggggggggggggggggggggggh
Dear school,
WHAT HAVE I DONE TO DESERVE THIS BULLSHIT?! I've been a good girl all my life, I've behaved in class and paid attention, I've diligently done my work, and I hardly take time off for myself. Why must you keep getting harder and more stressful for me?! I have never done you wrong. I'm in the final quarter of my senior year! Things were supposed to get easy this semester!!!!! Alas, they aren't...
WHAT HAVE I DONE TO DESERVE THIS BULLSHIT?! I've been a good girl all my life, I've behaved in class and paid attention, I've diligently done my work, and I hardly take time off for myself. Why must you keep getting harder and more stressful for me?! I have never done you wrong. I'm in the final quarter of my senior year! Things were supposed to get easy this semester!!!!! Alas, they aren't...
I SURVIVED THE PLACEMENT TESTS!!!!!!!!!!!!
However, I bombed two sections and I may need to retake them which SUCKS, and if I do poorly on them again, I may have to retake the class I took last year for math. I wouldn't really complain about that though, because I did pretty well. I just wish I had my binder from that class still!!!! Like I don't really want to go into college taking some incredibly difficult math class when I'm not really going to need much math where I'm going. Just basic Algebra and arithmetic! Still, my brain is completely fried and I'm in no mood to work on my English project or anything else, for that matter!
3/24/15
Today sucked big time. I'm not in any mood to go into details but lets just say that everything that I thought would go wrong did and then some! I'm about to take a math placement test for DePaul, so wooooooohoooooooo kill me!
Monday, March 23, 2015
Low Moment Y'all
Ugggggggggh now I have to deal with the freaking Carmongeddon bullshit tomorrow on top of this dumbass project, my placement tests, prom dress bullshit, AP Bio test that I'm not prepared for at all crap, and a ton of other bbullshit that isn't coming to my head at the moment. This week is going to suck more than last week did. At least I had a light at the end of the tunnel last week, you know? This week I have nothing. There's the state theater conference, but to be honest I don't really want to go since I'm the reason my school doesn't get to see Spring Awakening, I'm not performing in an individual event, and I'm stuck rooming with two girls I barely know and another girl I don't even like since all of my "friends" just HAD to room together. It would have been better if I just didn't sign up. They'd get to see their musical and they wouldn't have me weighing them down as a person who needs a room. Good god and I'm trying desperately to lose some weight, but that's looking highly unlikely, especially with my sister stuffing me with fast food in an attempt to "make me feel better." I feel fucking sick and I want to vomit. I'm not going to finish my project, and let it be known that I don't even care anymore. I can't take it right now, I can't take any of it. I just keep feeling worse and worse.
I hate everyone and everything indiscriminately at the moment.
Now I'm just really furious with everyone and everything. Andy's making me feel worse, my sister is trying to make me feel better by making me eat but when you feel fat that is the LAST thing you want to do, my mom isn't making things better, when I looked at the prom pictures from last year I only felt worse seeing how fucking fat I looked, and my dad thinks this is just some fucking hilarious joke.
I HATE MY MOTHER RIGHT NOW
We went back to the shop where I found my two dresses, and it was wonderful! We were about to buy the one that my mom thought was cheaper (because she's a goddamn cheapskate who doesn't care about my personal happiness) when we find out that the dress was actually DOUBLE the price that we though it was (it was almost $500!!!!!!). This made it an automatic "no" from my mom, even when I offered to pay for half or more of it. Now she wants me to wear the dress I wore last year that makes me look SOOOOO fat and pale and unattractive and I'm really really really really fucking upset right now. I feel unattractive and like a fatass and I still have so much fucking schoolwork to do I want to die!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Ugggggggggggh
There's absolutely no way that I'm going to finish this project in time. It sucks, but that's life I guess.
Good Morning!!!!
I'm up bright and early to put in work on my poetry project before we take my cat to the vet and before we go back to the store to determine which dress I'll get for Prom. I only have one analysis written, total... Neddless to say, I need to get on it!!!!!!!!!!!
Sunday, March 22, 2015
Ugggggggggggggggggh Poetry.....
I've hardly gotten anywhere with my poetry project tonight! I managed to copy and paste some citations in to create little "Works Cited" pages, but I still have to write 15 analyses of 15 different poems, so I'm still going to die!!!!! I hardly did anything today but shop, so I really need to get down to business in general!
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