Uggggggh I don't know what it is but I don't feel too well. All day I've been having awful cramps, and now I have a dreadful stomachache. Basically, I'm going to have to put off my job hunt plans for tonight (the calls, at least) and wait until tomorrow morning. Please send help I'm broke and going to Chicago soon, where everything is really expensive. Pleeeeeeeeeeeeease help by clicking an ad or getting on to InboxDollars using the banner on this page, pleeeeeeeeeease every little bit helps.
Nothing is about to come of that, but at least I tried.
Monday, June 15, 2015
Today So Far/My Job Hunt Struggles
I've been pretty busy today doing chores and running errands and the like! I had my final orthodontist appointment this morning, took myself out for breakfast, picked up my mom's much-belated Mother's Day gift, and then handled a few small tasks like picking up jugs of water and donating clothes to Goodwill. I still need to work out today, but I'm going to do that once I'm done doing all the laundry. Tomorrow I need to get back into my regimen of working out first thing after breakfast. I'm typically much more productive when I do that!
I still haven't heard anything back on the employment front. I'm getting a bit worried. I'm going to apply to a few more places online tonight and wait to see if I get any calls tonight from the places that didn't turn me down immediately. If I don't get any calls tonight, I'm going to call the remaining three places to get a concrete answer tomorrow morning after I've worked out. If I get nos from them, I'm going to dress up a bit then head out for a drive and see if I can pick up applications at any neighboring towns. Once I've gathered up a stack, I'm going to go home and fill all of them out, hopefully to return them later that evening.
I am NOT ending this week without securing a job.
I still haven't heard anything back on the employment front. I'm getting a bit worried. I'm going to apply to a few more places online tonight and wait to see if I get any calls tonight from the places that didn't turn me down immediately. If I don't get any calls tonight, I'm going to call the remaining three places to get a concrete answer tomorrow morning after I've worked out. If I get nos from them, I'm going to dress up a bit then head out for a drive and see if I can pick up applications at any neighboring towns. Once I've gathered up a stack, I'm going to go home and fill all of them out, hopefully to return them later that evening.
I am NOT ending this week without securing a job.
Sunday, June 14, 2015
Shrek, The Musical
The All-City musical was fantastic! Everybody in the cast was incredibly talented, and one of the most amazing things about this show is that it is completely run by high school students. These kids are such professionals, it's so impressive!
The show itself, Shrek, The Musical had a lot of heart and was overall pretty great! It was pretty true to the plot of the original movie, although there were many plot holes. Who knows though, those holes could've been there in the beginning; it's been so long since I've seen the film that I wouldn't know any better anyways! The music was great- a lot of fun, energetic songs, some ballads, a love song- you know, the typical makings of a solid musical theater soundtrack.
The talent behind the show, from the principal actors to the extras, was unparalleled. Each and every person on that stage managed to steal the scene, even if for only a second. In addition to that, it was very clear that every actor there was ecstatic to be there and genuinely loved putting on that show. That's something that cannot be taken for granted in a cast! Like in my school's most recent musical (Hello, Dolly!) nobody in the cast looked like they were happy and enjoying themselves. It didn't help that the show they were putting on was a hard to follow "romp" set in the 1890's that can only be made enjoyable through the presence of Barbara Streisand, but still!
Several of the actors shone in particular. Obviously, there were the four principal roles- Shrek, Princess Fiona, Donkey, and Lord Farquaad. Each person brought something great to the part. The actor behind Shrek had strong vocals and the perfect comedic and dramatic pacing for delivering his lines. He really brought Shrek's "layers" to life. Lord Farquaad stole all of his scenes- he played up the audience, was incredibly animated, and really managed to create the subtle nuances needed when portraying a character of such magnitude. Donkey not only was a vocal powerhouse, but had excellent comedic skills. He would have made Eddie Murphy proud, to say the least. Finally, the leading lady behind Fiona was perfect. She was an incredible, gifted vocalist, an amazing dancer, and played the character as perfectly as could be- a true triple threat. Those big four were an unstoppable force on the stage.
Some of the supporting cast members who stood out included Pinocchio, a girl who played "the sugar plum fairy" and voiced the Gingerbread Man (a puppet), a girl who played the Dragon (a giant puppet controlled by multiple people, the young lady looked like something straight out of Dreamgirls), a boy who played multiple comedic characters in the Ensemble, and the two girls who played the younger versions of Princess Fiona.
The only parts of the show that weren't so great were really things that couldn't have been controlled. The sound during the show was having many issues, oftentimes cutting off the microphones for the characters who only had one or two lines. If I was one of those actors, I probably would have been slightly annoyed because if those are my only moments to shine, I don't want them being taken away from a faulty sound system! The only other issue was the fact that there was essentially an army of small children at the theater creating disturbances and noise all over the place. That once again reinforced my plans to never have children.
Overall, the All-City Musical was a fantastic experience, well worth the trip and the money paid! Hopefully next year, they will perform yet another fantastic show, because I'd definitely love to see it!
The show itself, Shrek, The Musical had a lot of heart and was overall pretty great! It was pretty true to the plot of the original movie, although there were many plot holes. Who knows though, those holes could've been there in the beginning; it's been so long since I've seen the film that I wouldn't know any better anyways! The music was great- a lot of fun, energetic songs, some ballads, a love song- you know, the typical makings of a solid musical theater soundtrack.
The talent behind the show, from the principal actors to the extras, was unparalleled. Each and every person on that stage managed to steal the scene, even if for only a second. In addition to that, it was very clear that every actor there was ecstatic to be there and genuinely loved putting on that show. That's something that cannot be taken for granted in a cast! Like in my school's most recent musical (Hello, Dolly!) nobody in the cast looked like they were happy and enjoying themselves. It didn't help that the show they were putting on was a hard to follow "romp" set in the 1890's that can only be made enjoyable through the presence of Barbara Streisand, but still!
Several of the actors shone in particular. Obviously, there were the four principal roles- Shrek, Princess Fiona, Donkey, and Lord Farquaad. Each person brought something great to the part. The actor behind Shrek had strong vocals and the perfect comedic and dramatic pacing for delivering his lines. He really brought Shrek's "layers" to life. Lord Farquaad stole all of his scenes- he played up the audience, was incredibly animated, and really managed to create the subtle nuances needed when portraying a character of such magnitude. Donkey not only was a vocal powerhouse, but had excellent comedic skills. He would have made Eddie Murphy proud, to say the least. Finally, the leading lady behind Fiona was perfect. She was an incredible, gifted vocalist, an amazing dancer, and played the character as perfectly as could be- a true triple threat. Those big four were an unstoppable force on the stage.
Some of the supporting cast members who stood out included Pinocchio, a girl who played "the sugar plum fairy" and voiced the Gingerbread Man (a puppet), a girl who played the Dragon (a giant puppet controlled by multiple people, the young lady looked like something straight out of Dreamgirls), a boy who played multiple comedic characters in the Ensemble, and the two girls who played the younger versions of Princess Fiona.
The only parts of the show that weren't so great were really things that couldn't have been controlled. The sound during the show was having many issues, oftentimes cutting off the microphones for the characters who only had one or two lines. If I was one of those actors, I probably would have been slightly annoyed because if those are my only moments to shine, I don't want them being taken away from a faulty sound system! The only other issue was the fact that there was essentially an army of small children at the theater creating disturbances and noise all over the place. That once again reinforced my plans to never have children.
Overall, the All-City Musical was a fantastic experience, well worth the trip and the money paid! Hopefully next year, they will perform yet another fantastic show, because I'd definitely love to see it!
Last Night/Today
Yesterday I went to a whopping four graduation parties all within the span of three and a half hours! I was pretty impressed with myself. It was a lot of fun though, I enjoyed seeing several of my friends again. I went to one girl's party who I had several classes with this year, I went to one of my longtime friends from elementary school's party that she was sharing with her cousin, who I am also friends with, I went to my twin friends' party, and then I ended my party circuit at one of my lacrosse friend's party. (He was the one who asked me to prom literally the day after I sorted things out with Jack regarding prom. I'm still really annoyed with Jack lately, he's been pretty inadvertently rude to me lately.) Overall, the parties were a lot of fun!
After my whirlwind of parties, I went to Andy's house to celebrate his birthday with him. When I was in Paris I saw this great Beatles poster and I bought that for him. We had a lovely time, just relaxing and enjoying each others' company. I can't believe he's twenty now! When I met him, he was just turning 18 (He's a year and a half older than me). While I was in London, we hit our 2nd anniversary. Honestly it's been the best two years of my life. My immediate family still isn't very keen on him, but he makes me incredibly happy and I'm not sure if they realize that. This relationship has been the most emotionally fulfilling experiences! He treats me with so much respect, reveres me as a goddess, and would do anything for me. And that alone is somethings that any parent would wish for in their child's significant other.
Today I'm once again a social butterfly! I am currently cleaning out my room and my closet, and soon heading out to Akron for the All-City Musical, Shrek, The Musical! I'm going with my friend Amanda, and I'm pretty excited. I'll be sure to give an update about it.
After my whirlwind of parties, I went to Andy's house to celebrate his birthday with him. When I was in Paris I saw this great Beatles poster and I bought that for him. We had a lovely time, just relaxing and enjoying each others' company. I can't believe he's twenty now! When I met him, he was just turning 18 (He's a year and a half older than me). While I was in London, we hit our 2nd anniversary. Honestly it's been the best two years of my life. My immediate family still isn't very keen on him, but he makes me incredibly happy and I'm not sure if they realize that. This relationship has been the most emotionally fulfilling experiences! He treats me with so much respect, reveres me as a goddess, and would do anything for me. And that alone is somethings that any parent would wish for in their child's significant other.
Today I'm once again a social butterfly! I am currently cleaning out my room and my closet, and soon heading out to Akron for the All-City Musical, Shrek, The Musical! I'm going with my friend Amanda, and I'm pretty excited. I'll be sure to give an update about it.
Saturday, June 13, 2015
Rachel Dolezal
Yesterday I saw the story of Rachel Dolezal on Facebook. For those of you unfamiliar with it or who live outside the United States, Rachel Dolezal is a graduate of Howard University- an HBCU (Historically Black College/University), an Africana Studies professor at Eastern Washington University, and is the president of the Spokane, Washington branch of the National Association for the Advancement of Colored People (NAACP). Sounds innocuous, right? Here's the thing- Rachel Dolezal is a white woman who has been disguising herself as a black woman since 2007.
Her parents reached out to every news outlet they could to reveal their daughters true heritage and to bring her lie to the attention of the public. They provided a birth certificate, photos, and family anecdotes. Her parents said that they are of German and Czech descent. Dolezal has several adopted siblings who are black and is married to a black man (she married him while she was white, mind you), and has been using her youngest adopted brother as her "son" and does not allow him to contact the rest of the Dolezal family. According to another one of her adopted siblings, she made her "son" despise white people, even though she herself is a white person.
Dolezal also claims to have been the victim of nine hate crimes over the past few years. However, information provided by the postal service has debunked her most recent assertion that she has received hate mail. Based on all of her other lies, how can anybody believe that she hadn't staged any of her other hate crimes?
I personally am incredibly disgusted by her actions. Cultural appropriation is something that I have very mixed feelings on, because I believe that it is okay to adopt elements of a culture into one's life if it is done respectfully, but Dolezal has taken this too far. She essentially lives her life in blackface! It repulses me to think that she simply chose to adopt this culture and preaches about the struggles of the culture when she personally has never had to face the oppression and has had to suffer in the way that black people have. What she did is a slap in the face to every person of color, as well as a slap in the face to her own heritage.
Many news outlets are trying to compare her mess of lies to Caitlyn Jenner's transition, but frankly they are completely and utterly wrong. Caitlyn is being true to who she is, Dolezal is lying to everybody around her and disrespecting not one but two rich, developed cultures.
Her parents reached out to every news outlet they could to reveal their daughters true heritage and to bring her lie to the attention of the public. They provided a birth certificate, photos, and family anecdotes. Her parents said that they are of German and Czech descent. Dolezal has several adopted siblings who are black and is married to a black man (she married him while she was white, mind you), and has been using her youngest adopted brother as her "son" and does not allow him to contact the rest of the Dolezal family. According to another one of her adopted siblings, she made her "son" despise white people, even though she herself is a white person.
Dolezal also claims to have been the victim of nine hate crimes over the past few years. However, information provided by the postal service has debunked her most recent assertion that she has received hate mail. Based on all of her other lies, how can anybody believe that she hadn't staged any of her other hate crimes?
I personally am incredibly disgusted by her actions. Cultural appropriation is something that I have very mixed feelings on, because I believe that it is okay to adopt elements of a culture into one's life if it is done respectfully, but Dolezal has taken this too far. She essentially lives her life in blackface! It repulses me to think that she simply chose to adopt this culture and preaches about the struggles of the culture when she personally has never had to face the oppression and has had to suffer in the way that black people have. What she did is a slap in the face to every person of color, as well as a slap in the face to her own heritage.
Many news outlets are trying to compare her mess of lies to Caitlyn Jenner's transition, but frankly they are completely and utterly wrong. Caitlyn is being true to who she is, Dolezal is lying to everybody around her and disrespecting not one but two rich, developed cultures.
Friday, June 12, 2015
Chores Galore
Today has been pretty uneventful. I spent it doing chores and running errands for my mom. Still no luck on the job front, so hopefully that will turn around soon! I did manage to work out earlier, and I'm going to work out again after dinner. I have this habit of instantly eating back all the calories I've burned and then some every time I work out in the morning during lunch. I'm kinda out of control in that way, and I really need to work on exercising my willpower. If I can start getting into better habits now, I'll be in much better shape later on.
Thursday, June 11, 2015
Stressed as it gets right now
I am failing at finding a job. I owe my mom lord only knows how much money from this vacation. I need to save whatever money I can so I have it while I'm at college, but I don't even have that much to begin with. I NEED to work but I don't know if that's going to happen for me. I don't know how the hell I can make any money. Like I can only get so far with InboxDollars (please please please check it out using the banner- I'm affiliated with that link so I earn a little bit whenever anybody joins the community using that link and I will take anything that I can get), and I may have to join some other online rewards/payment communities.
On top of my money worries, my mom is starting to catch on to the fact that I don't like organized religion, and BOY is she angry with me for it. She keeps saying "seriously, why did I pay all that money for Catholic schools if this is how you repay me?!" and it's really upsetting me. Like she doesn't know that I'm agnostic/a deist (I'm still trying to sort it out, all I know is I certainly am not a Catholic or any other Christian denomination), but she knows that I hate going to church and being in church and doing anything related to church. I'm worried that the truth is just going to slip out at some point during conversation and I just won't be able to keep it from my parents anymore.
I haven't wanted to talk about it with them ever because I'm terrified of their reactions. Like just off my mom's current reactions to my dislike of attending mass I know that a storm is a-brewing. I'm terrified really. I'm scared that they'll reject me and throw me out of their lives and leave me to fend for myself which is something that I'm really ill-equipped to do. My mom's wrath alone is terrifying; she can reduce anybody to tears in a matter of seconds. It's insane. And oh my goodness hearing my parents describe what they'd do to me if I ever became a Democrat makes me tremble in fear of me telling them about how I feel about religion.
I'm sick of living in the shadows and having to lie to myself every time that I'm dragged to church, forced to say grace before family dinners, and so on. I psychologically cannot take it. Every time that I am dragged to mass, I tear up many times and get choked up. Especially when my mom forces me to sing along with the hymns and to participate in the mass. It physically pains my heart, I get a huge lump in my throat just thinking about it. I know that I'm not being true to who I am and that hurts me so much and so deeply but I can't bear to say anything to my parents about it. I know that it'd hurt them so badly and I really hate disappointing them, but this is who I am and I can't change it. I've tried so so hard to believe, I really have. I just can't. And I hate to disappoint my family and make them think that I don't appreciate Catholic school and the moral lessons I've learned there because I DO I really do, but keeping all of this inside of me is tearing me apart.
On top of my money worries, my mom is starting to catch on to the fact that I don't like organized religion, and BOY is she angry with me for it. She keeps saying "seriously, why did I pay all that money for Catholic schools if this is how you repay me?!" and it's really upsetting me. Like she doesn't know that I'm agnostic/a deist (I'm still trying to sort it out, all I know is I certainly am not a Catholic or any other Christian denomination), but she knows that I hate going to church and being in church and doing anything related to church. I'm worried that the truth is just going to slip out at some point during conversation and I just won't be able to keep it from my parents anymore.
I haven't wanted to talk about it with them ever because I'm terrified of their reactions. Like just off my mom's current reactions to my dislike of attending mass I know that a storm is a-brewing. I'm terrified really. I'm scared that they'll reject me and throw me out of their lives and leave me to fend for myself which is something that I'm really ill-equipped to do. My mom's wrath alone is terrifying; she can reduce anybody to tears in a matter of seconds. It's insane. And oh my goodness hearing my parents describe what they'd do to me if I ever became a Democrat makes me tremble in fear of me telling them about how I feel about religion.
I'm sick of living in the shadows and having to lie to myself every time that I'm dragged to church, forced to say grace before family dinners, and so on. I psychologically cannot take it. Every time that I am dragged to mass, I tear up many times and get choked up. Especially when my mom forces me to sing along with the hymns and to participate in the mass. It physically pains my heart, I get a huge lump in my throat just thinking about it. I know that I'm not being true to who I am and that hurts me so much and so deeply but I can't bear to say anything to my parents about it. I know that it'd hurt them so badly and I really hate disappointing them, but this is who I am and I can't change it. I've tried so so hard to believe, I really have. I just can't. And I hate to disappoint my family and make them think that I don't appreciate Catholic school and the moral lessons I've learned there because I DO I really do, but keeping all of this inside of me is tearing me apart.
Help me, I'm poor...
The only job offers I've been getting are scams from human trafficking rings, it's cool...
Yup, that's right! There's been letters going out to many girls ages 18+ in my region from a company offering $15.25 an hour asking us to set up private interviews with them. My mom, after reviewing the letter, advised me against following through with it. (I probably wouldn't have done it anyways, I didn't really understand what the "company" was about and what I'd have to do- I don't like going into things blindly.) Later, I found out that a police investigation unveiled that this group was actually a front for human trafficking. They make girls believe that they're about to be interviewed, give them a roofied glass of water while they wait for their interview, then BAM they're forced into prostitution. Evidently, they found these girls through their social media, so I REALLY need to adjust all my privacy settings!I HATE JOB HUNTING AND I'M TERRIBLE AT IT
Remember how I filled out about 10 job applications about 2 weeks ago? I haven't been contacted by a single place so I've decided to go down my list calling to check on the status of my applications with the hopes of MAYBE securing an interview. I'm over halfway down the list and haven't gotten anywhere yet. In some cases the hiring manager hasn't been in, so I've been deferred for a few days or so. The rest I've been turned away. It's getting to be really late for me to still be hunting for a summer job- the month is halfway over! I only have 2 and a half workable months in me!
I'm Back!!!!!
Europe was fantastic! I loved it a lot, and out of all the family vacations my family has been on, this has been one of our best. We hardly fought at all, and overall we all had a good time!
Paris was absolutely gorgeous! It was pretty rainy while I was there, but that didn't take away from the city's beauty. We saw all kinds of beautiful landmarks, shopped, ate amazing meals, and even visited the Musee d'Orsay! I definitely want to go back there sometime before I'm thirty.
London took awhile for me to fall in love with. It had gorgeous, old buildings and landmarks juxtaposed against ultra modern (but amazing) buildings and structures and hideous office buildings from the 1970s and 80s. It took awhile to get used to that, because the buiildings in Paris had a uniformity of sorts that made the city blend together well. I thought Paris was easier to get around than London, but the London Underground was much easier to understand than Le Metro. We actually got lost in Le Metro, and thanks to the remnants of knowledge I gained from doing a stupid stupid stupid project in French III I was able to get us back to our hotel.
In England, we visited some landmarks (and spent like 4 hours in St. Paul's Cathedral thanks to a ridiculously long guided tour), caught up with some of my mom's old friends from her time in England, saw a club water polo match, ate terrible terrible meals, shopped a TON, and went to the West End to see Bend it Like Beckham The Musical. The show was fantastic, by the way! I loved it a ton, it was really different from many of the musicals that I've seen in the past.
The most difficult parts of the vacation were the flights. Our overseas flights were great. Lufthansa is now officially the greatest airline EVER in my opinion. Their seats were comfortable and spacious, we had a selection of free, endless entertainment, a fantastic in flight meal, and excellent service! It makes me want to fly to Germany more often! The domestic U.S. flights were ATROCIOUS though. On our first flight, they took off an hour late due to computer issues. On our flight back from the Newark airport, we had a half hour delay, no air conditioning on a packed flight in 90 degree weather, and very uncomfortable seating. But hey, if the worst parts of a vacation are getting there and getting back home, that's a pretty great thing!
Paris was absolutely gorgeous! It was pretty rainy while I was there, but that didn't take away from the city's beauty. We saw all kinds of beautiful landmarks, shopped, ate amazing meals, and even visited the Musee d'Orsay! I definitely want to go back there sometime before I'm thirty.
London took awhile for me to fall in love with. It had gorgeous, old buildings and landmarks juxtaposed against ultra modern (but amazing) buildings and structures and hideous office buildings from the 1970s and 80s. It took awhile to get used to that, because the buiildings in Paris had a uniformity of sorts that made the city blend together well. I thought Paris was easier to get around than London, but the London Underground was much easier to understand than Le Metro. We actually got lost in Le Metro, and thanks to the remnants of knowledge I gained from doing a stupid stupid stupid project in French III I was able to get us back to our hotel.
In England, we visited some landmarks (and spent like 4 hours in St. Paul's Cathedral thanks to a ridiculously long guided tour), caught up with some of my mom's old friends from her time in England, saw a club water polo match, ate terrible terrible meals, shopped a TON, and went to the West End to see Bend it Like Beckham The Musical. The show was fantastic, by the way! I loved it a ton, it was really different from many of the musicals that I've seen in the past.
The most difficult parts of the vacation were the flights. Our overseas flights were great. Lufthansa is now officially the greatest airline EVER in my opinion. Their seats were comfortable and spacious, we had a selection of free, endless entertainment, a fantastic in flight meal, and excellent service! It makes me want to fly to Germany more often! The domestic U.S. flights were ATROCIOUS though. On our first flight, they took off an hour late due to computer issues. On our flight back from the Newark airport, we had a half hour delay, no air conditioning on a packed flight in 90 degree weather, and very uncomfortable seating. But hey, if the worst parts of a vacation are getting there and getting back home, that's a pretty great thing!
Friday, May 29, 2015
5/29/15
Today I've been running around like a chicken with its head cut off trying to pack and do last minute chores for my mom! I haven't had a single second to myself, which is ehhh, but at least I'm being productive. Today was my sister's last day of school as well, so now I won't be the only person doing chores all summer!
On the bright side, I have been eating pretty great today. I had more fruit today than I've had in the past three months! I'm not even kidding, I'm that terrible with my regular diet. I don't think I'll have time for a workout, but maybe if I get home early enough I will!
On the bright side, I have been eating pretty great today. I had more fruit today than I've had in the past three months! I'm not even kidding, I'm that terrible with my regular diet. I don't think I'll have time for a workout, but maybe if I get home early enough I will!
Thursday, May 28, 2015
5/28/15
Even though I was fairly productive today, I still feel like there's more I could do/could have done. Like I could definitely work out a little more, and I think I will closer to when I go to bed. Like I was insanely productive in walking my dog, doing dishes and other chores multiple times, helping my grandma out, converting a bunch of my old tee shirts into tank tops, and so on, but I didn't clean my room at all or anything of that sort.
I think I'm just going to have a low-key night though and go through my list of things I want to get for my dorm next year. I should probably check with my roommate to see if she's cool with us just doing our own things in terms of decor. Like I know that a lot of girls plan out a dorm that is incredibly coordinated and everything matches and stuff, but that isn't really me. I have a lot of cool things that I want to take with me, soooo she hopefully will like that!
I think I'm just going to have a low-key night though and go through my list of things I want to get for my dorm next year. I should probably check with my roommate to see if she's cool with us just doing our own things in terms of decor. Like I know that a lot of girls plan out a dorm that is incredibly coordinated and everything matches and stuff, but that isn't really me. I have a lot of cool things that I want to take with me, soooo she hopefully will like that!
Summer So Far
I've been out of school for a week and a half, and I'm slowly but surely getting into a routine of sorts! Mostly I've been running errands, but really I haven't been very productive so I want to work on that. Yesterday I went to the gym for a bit, gave myself a mani-pedi, and taught my grandma how to text. Today, I'm trying to be even more productive. I've already walked my dog and did some chores and errands for my mother, and while I'm recuperating from my walk I'm going to keep applying for jobs online, turn some old tee shirts into cutoffs, and straighten up my room. I might even work on a scholarship application, who knows! Later, my grandma is coming over for a follow-up texting lesson, I'm going to start packing for vacation, and I'm going to work out some more. I'm either going to do Pilates or an Insanity video or both. It all depends on what I have time/energy for.
Also, Saturday I'm going to Paris with my family! We'll be there for three days seeing as many sights and museums as possible, then after that we'll be heading to London. I'm pretty excited to see everything I learned about in French class, to visit old friend in England, and overall to get a taste of the culture (and slightly cooler weather) in Europe! So I probably won't be blogging much until I'm back home, but you can bet that I'll have a ton of photos to post.
Also, Saturday I'm going to Paris with my family! We'll be there for three days seeing as many sights and museums as possible, then after that we'll be heading to London. I'm pretty excited to see everything I learned about in French class, to visit old friend in England, and overall to get a taste of the culture (and slightly cooler weather) in Europe! So I probably won't be blogging much until I'm back home, but you can bet that I'll have a ton of photos to post.
Tuesday, May 26, 2015
5/26/15
Well I've been gone for quite some time, but I guess that happens! School is over, I've graduated, and I'm currently struggling to get employed, lose weight, and pretty much meet the goals I set for myself last summer and did okay on but never achieved!
Not going to school has been really surreal. I thought I'd cry more when high school ended but I guess not! It still hasn't really sunken in yet that I'm done. I'll just take it as a blessing for now.
Not going to school has been really surreal. I thought I'd cry more when high school ended but I guess not! It still hasn't really sunken in yet that I'm done. I'll just take it as a blessing for now.
Saturday, May 9, 2015
5/9/15
Things have started to look up. I wrote a "letter" to Jack about how he hurt my feelings and just kinda let it all out which was pretty beneficial for me. I'm actually going to deliver it. I'm gonna wait to do it until Tuesday cuz the next morning I'll have the AP Stats test, so I won't have to see him first thing in the morning the next day and I'll have a day to just kinda hide away and let him reflect on it. I'm kinda nervous, but at least I have everything written down so it's not like I have to say it to his face. That definitely helps.
Prom= A Pretty Mehhhhhhh Night.
Last night was interesting, to say the least.
Pre-Prom was pretty solid, Prom itself was super awkward because neither my date nor I were really feeling it the whole night, but people kept trying to get us to dance and "have fun." At one point we just went off and talked the whole time, and that was way better. Then, he ditched me at afterprom and I've felt pretty shitty ever since.
Pre-Prom was pretty solid, Prom itself was super awkward because neither my date nor I were really feeling it the whole night, but people kept trying to get us to dance and "have fun." At one point we just went off and talked the whole time, and that was way better. Then, he ditched me at afterprom and I've felt pretty shitty ever since.
Tuesday, May 5, 2015
Carmongeddon 2.5: What the Shit this is still a THING?!
I'm going to start using names now, because christ, it's not like any of my staffmates know I have this blog! So here's a key if you're planning on reading through all the previous Carmongeddon posts:
- Sarah= My co-Editor, Carmongeddon herself!
- Natalie/Tanny= Our staff adviser
- Maddi and Christina= other members of the staff who Sarah really does not like/treat with kindness
Back when Carmongeddon 2: Electric Boogaloo was coming to its close, Sarah had to leave to get an intense knee surgery. When she returned, she was a lot nicer to people. I think that having to rely a lot on the kindness of others made her realize that she has to treat others with kindness herself. However, as she's healed physically, her mean streak has started to return to her. For the last week and a half or so, she's been verbally abusing Maddi. She does it in a "joking" manner so nobody can really do anything about it, but it's hurtful because we know that she actually means what she says because she does not like Maddi one bit. She'll say things like "Shut up, Maddi!" or "Maddi, I thought we banned you from talking!" or "Why am I still hearing your voice?" Which, although said in a joking manner, still hurt Maddi's feelings. So there's been tension building up between the two of them.
The past several days, Sarah has been using a specific computer to work with all the data from the senior superlatives and senior surveys for our senior issue. She won't let ANYBODY touch them, which has been causing some more tension because we are definitely crunched for time. All of the information is on a Google Doc, by the way, so it can be opened literally anywhere. So, Christina was using that particular computer to proofread some of the written responses from our classmates because we really need to be on the ball with that sort of thing, yet Sarah refused to share the document with anybody so Christina couldn't do it on another computer since that one was logged in to Sarah's account. Sarah was mad that Christina was using "her" computer and threw a wee hissy fit at being asked to suck it up and use a different computer, and kept making passive-aggressive remarks to Christina about it. Then, Maddi came into the room to work on the layout for her portion of the senior issue. No computers were free, so Sarah gave up hers because she "couldn't get anything done on that one anyway" and left with her signature exasperated huff. When Maddi asked her if she could use the senior surveys so that she could record or get an idea of where people are going to college so she could get some work done on her pages, Sarah started berating her, telling her that she would mess up her entire organizational system/ruin everything for her (in much ruder terms and a much harsher tone). Christina bravely said, "Sarah, you can't talk to us like this." (Which she was PERFECTLY in her right to do after the childish behavior she and Maddi put up with from Sarah) To which Sarah replied, "WELL YOU CAN'T TREAT ME LIKE THIS!!!!!"
Sarah and Maddi started bickering back and forth, Maddi left to get the support of Natalie, but came back in under five minutes with nothing to show for it. Like when class actually began, all the underclassmen were sent out and we were all told that basically we had to suck it up and put up with each other for the rest of the year since these will be Natalie's last memories of Hoban.
All while sitting through the crazy awkwardness in that class, all I could say to myself was "WHAT THE SHIT IS THIS BULLSHIT SHIT MAN I THOUGHT WE WERE DONE WITH THIS SHIT I SHIT YOU NOT ARE YOU SHITTING ME IS THIS REAL LIFE?"
5/5/15: Carmongeddon 2.5?
It's my sister's birthday, yay! Also, things got crazy in newspaper- more on that later.
Monday, May 4, 2015
Ugggggh boys are really really really annoying.
Like before the whole prom thing Jack and I got along really great, but now he can't even look at me or make eye contact with me let alone hold a conversation. Like I'm sure a lot of this is from nerves and stuff, but it's really annoying/hurtful for me. It's not like I'm expecting a lot from him, I just want him to be himself because he's really fantastic. But this whole not talking to your Prom date business is really really bothering me. Like if he had just texted me back and said "You should bring your money to school Monday" I could have gone to the ATM and got some cash instead of being stranded and blindsided.
5/4/15 AKA Boys are Fairly Annoying
Ugh.
So today was the last day to purchase Prom tickets at my school, and all last weekend I was texting Jack about whether he wants me to bring money to school and pay for part/all of my ticket or if he was going to handle it himself. I got no reply whatsoever. In newspaper today we were sorting out and organizing the Prom permission forms, and I saw his in there and that made me think that he took care of the tickets on his own but didn't say anything. With my luck, that was not the case!
2:56 PM: I'm halfway out to my car, getting ready to call a florist to place my boutonniere order, when I get a text. "Sorry, I was asleep when I got your text last night. I only brought $40 (the cost of one ticket) to school with me, so I don't think I'm going to be able to pay for yours. Sorry"
WERE YOU ASLEEP ALL FREAKING WEEKEND LONG BOY?!
How much money was in my wallet, you ask? $20. So I paid for half a ticket, owe the Librarian $20 tomorrow, and am ready to strangle Jack.
So today was the last day to purchase Prom tickets at my school, and all last weekend I was texting Jack about whether he wants me to bring money to school and pay for part/all of my ticket or if he was going to handle it himself. I got no reply whatsoever. In newspaper today we were sorting out and organizing the Prom permission forms, and I saw his in there and that made me think that he took care of the tickets on his own but didn't say anything. With my luck, that was not the case!
2:56 PM: I'm halfway out to my car, getting ready to call a florist to place my boutonniere order, when I get a text. "Sorry, I was asleep when I got your text last night. I only brought $40 (the cost of one ticket) to school with me, so I don't think I'm going to be able to pay for yours. Sorry"
WERE YOU ASLEEP ALL FREAKING WEEKEND LONG BOY?!
How much money was in my wallet, you ask? $20. So I paid for half a ticket, owe the Librarian $20 tomorrow, and am ready to strangle Jack.
Sunday, May 3, 2015
I just bought my sister's birthday gift online, go me! I'm not really in the mood to go to bed, so I think I'm going to go on Pinterest and look for new workouts and health-related things. I know it'd be better for me to get to bed, but I can't help but feel inspired and motivated from Pinterest! Like I want to wake up 20 minutes earlier tomorrow so I HAVE to fit in a brief workout. That's my goal, at least!
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